1. Masuk syurga, dapat tengok Allah SWT. Inshaallah :D
2. Perform Hajj with my siblings and beloved Uda :)
3. Jadi muslimah sejati,
4. Jadi anak dan adik yang solehah,
5. Jadi bakal aunty yang membimbing,
6. Dan jadi kawan yang membina :)
7. Graduate in Dentistry from a university in India for degree, and of course in order to achieve that I have to ace in my A-levels. Inshaallah. Aminnnnn.
8. Buy a VW Beetle!
9. Start a business. I've always wanted to do this. But ..... I dont know. Haha.
10. Take Uda to wherever she wants to go and buy her anything that she wants to have.
11. Able to forgive everyone sincerely, no more holding on grudges.
12. I want a pink rose :)
13. Marry someone who can be my imam, who loves me wholly. Even better if he's a photographer. Hehehee
14. Marry at an early age!
15. Taknak couple, kahwin terus hihihi :p
16. Publish a book, about the story of my life. The highschool drama, the heartbreaks, and most importantly the recovery part :)
17. Oh yeah, this is crazy but I've always wanted to walk on a runway! Haha.
18. Having the knowledge, the courage and the right skills to preach. I very much wish I could make someone who hasn't realize the beauty of Islam to be able to feel and see it.
19. Have a wardrobe which consists of all colors and different patterns of shawls and pants. Haha. Me likeyyy
20. Dapat balik rumah selalu T-T by selalu I mean every week or maybe everyday hahaha
Urgh okay I'm out of ideas actually. Most of them are not really impian mana pun, the one and only impian is the first and the second one. If I could enter the jannah, together with my family members that I really love, what more could I ask for right?
I'm thankful for everything I have. I'm having a great time. Alhamdulillah for every single little thing. May tomorrow be much better than today, inshaAllah. Assalamualaikum dear readers :)
Thursday, 15 March 2012
Sunday, 11 March 2012
Amar Makruf Nahi Mungkar.
Assalamualaikum :)
As everyone knows, as a Muslim we have the responsibility to always remind our brothers and sisters. Stop them from doing something bad and encourage them to do something good.
But macam mana pun, you have to do it the right way. You don't simply go to someone and tell them "Hey stop doing that it's sinful". Well if it's your close friend then it might be okay cause you definitely know them well. But if that's just a stranger whom you met at the pavement, I doubt that person will accept it nicely. They'll be like "WHAAT?"
To spread good things and put a halt to bad things you have to use the right ways and say the right words. Another bad example would be talking bad things, or being sarcastic to people who commit sins like not wearing tudung. I saw this one thing "Ni pakai sexy nak pergi mana? Neraka?" It is true pakai sexy tu haram berdosa. But who are we to say that they're going to hell? And if you're that person, instead of rasa bersalah dan berdosa, she'd feel offended and sakit hati lagi ada, kita yang berdosa.
I'm not saying jangan tegur bila orang buat salah, tapi tegur elok2 la. Instead of saying something mcm tadi tu, why don't you say something like "*point to a beautiful dress in a shop Which covers your aurat* This looks good on you! :)" like you know, say it nicely and softly.
Know why I blog about this? Cause I was offended. Very badly it hurts so much. I know I've committed a lot of sins, I'm trying to repent, I'm trying to change bit by bit. One day, a girl who hardly knows me, maybe we've known each other for years but we've just started being friends and we're not even close. She said this to me "Awak buat tu berdosa. Awak try la elakkan." until there, I was still fine. I mean, it's true that it's sinful but it's something that I'm used to, but of course I'll try to avoid it. It felt like my heart was being stabbed by a blunt knife, when she said "Kalau mak awak tahu mesti dia sedih."
And you know what? That's too much. Way beyond the limit. Not even my bestfriend, not even my siblings dared to say that to me. No one other than my aunt, who has taken care of me since birth. And who are you again? Someone whom I barely think of as a friend, someone who knows nothing about me, and you said that?
Ya Allah, only He knows how I felt at that moment. I felt like screaming to her face and tell her to shut up. But I know that'll cause a big fight, so I can only pray to Him to give me the strength to control my anger.
This is the only way of letting it out. Astaghfirullah, forgive me for all this. Janganlah Kau buat orang yang aku tegur rasa macam tu.
Amar Makruf Nahi Mungkar, do it the right way. Inshaallah :)
As everyone knows, as a Muslim we have the responsibility to always remind our brothers and sisters. Stop them from doing something bad and encourage them to do something good.
But macam mana pun, you have to do it the right way. You don't simply go to someone and tell them "Hey stop doing that it's sinful". Well if it's your close friend then it might be okay cause you definitely know them well. But if that's just a stranger whom you met at the pavement, I doubt that person will accept it nicely. They'll be like "WHAAT?"
To spread good things and put a halt to bad things you have to use the right ways and say the right words. Another bad example would be talking bad things, or being sarcastic to people who commit sins like not wearing tudung. I saw this one thing "Ni pakai sexy nak pergi mana? Neraka?" It is true pakai sexy tu haram berdosa. But who are we to say that they're going to hell? And if you're that person, instead of rasa bersalah dan berdosa, she'd feel offended and sakit hati lagi ada, kita yang berdosa.
I'm not saying jangan tegur bila orang buat salah, tapi tegur elok2 la. Instead of saying something mcm tadi tu, why don't you say something like "*point to a beautiful dress in a shop Which covers your aurat* This looks good on you! :)" like you know, say it nicely and softly.
Know why I blog about this? Cause I was offended. Very badly it hurts so much. I know I've committed a lot of sins, I'm trying to repent, I'm trying to change bit by bit. One day, a girl who hardly knows me, maybe we've known each other for years but we've just started being friends and we're not even close. She said this to me "Awak buat tu berdosa. Awak try la elakkan." until there, I was still fine. I mean, it's true that it's sinful but it's something that I'm used to, but of course I'll try to avoid it. It felt like my heart was being stabbed by a blunt knife, when she said "Kalau mak awak tahu mesti dia sedih."
And you know what? That's too much. Way beyond the limit. Not even my bestfriend, not even my siblings dared to say that to me. No one other than my aunt, who has taken care of me since birth. And who are you again? Someone whom I barely think of as a friend, someone who knows nothing about me, and you said that?
Ya Allah, only He knows how I felt at that moment. I felt like screaming to her face and tell her to shut up. But I know that'll cause a big fight, so I can only pray to Him to give me the strength to control my anger.
This is the only way of letting it out. Astaghfirullah, forgive me for all this. Janganlah Kau buat orang yang aku tegur rasa macam tu.
Amar Makruf Nahi Mungkar, do it the right way. Inshaallah :)
Friday, 9 March 2012
Deaths.
Sometimes you hear people say "Lek ah muda lagi enjoy dulu, nnt taubat ah."
Recently, two people who are very close to me passed away. First it was my cousin brother, he was hardly 30 years old. He fell badly ill and the sufferings ended not long after, with death. And then it's my neighbor. He's only 13 years old. He passed away sebab tertimbus tanah runtuh. Natural disaster which no one expected to happen somewhere near my house.
Al-Fatihah for both of them, may Allah's blessings be with them, may they rest in peace. Amin.
Well, these two deaths really shocked me, and also reminded me. Deaths don't only come to the elderly. When the time comes, tak lambat atau cepat walau sesaat, tak kira umur tua atau muda, ajal memang dah tetap. Cuma perlukan penyebab.
So let us all repent to Allah SWT, the Most Forgiving and Most Merciful, it's never too late, inshaallah. Let's stop committing sins on purpose, let's start reminding each other, let us all pray for His blessings and most importantly, let us all pray for we die in imaan. Jannah is our goal. Inshaallah.
Also Al-Fatihah for my late Ummi. I miss her, but I know Allah loves her more and is taking the best care of her. I love you Ummi.
Recently, two people who are very close to me passed away. First it was my cousin brother, he was hardly 30 years old. He fell badly ill and the sufferings ended not long after, with death. And then it's my neighbor. He's only 13 years old. He passed away sebab tertimbus tanah runtuh. Natural disaster which no one expected to happen somewhere near my house.
Al-Fatihah for both of them, may Allah's blessings be with them, may they rest in peace. Amin.
Well, these two deaths really shocked me, and also reminded me. Deaths don't only come to the elderly. When the time comes, tak lambat atau cepat walau sesaat, tak kira umur tua atau muda, ajal memang dah tetap. Cuma perlukan penyebab.
So let us all repent to Allah SWT, the Most Forgiving and Most Merciful, it's never too late, inshaallah. Let's stop committing sins on purpose, let's start reminding each other, let us all pray for His blessings and most importantly, let us all pray for we die in imaan. Jannah is our goal. Inshaallah.
Also Al-Fatihah for my late Ummi. I miss her, but I know Allah loves her more and is taking the best care of her. I love you Ummi.
Saturday, 3 March 2012
Beautiful Saturday :)
Alhamdulillah for such a wonderful, awesome, fantabulous day.
Kak Ummi came from Perak and slept over at my house. Woke up quite early, my family bought McDonald's for breakfast. Then Kak Ummi and I went to Jalan TAR, did some shopping hehehe.
Then Kak Zue and Atiq arrived at KL Sentral. They were from LCCT, Kak Zue from Kedah and Atiq from Kelantan. Farah also arrived from Shah Alam. She wears tudung now, we're all very happy for her. Alhamdulillah :)
So we went to Mid Valley, as what had been planned many weeks earlier. Had a super great time with them. Rindu sangat3 I wish they're still in KTT :( But I'm thankful enough to have the chance to have such wonderful friends :)
Then after berpisah di KL Sentral, went to Pavilion pulak jumpa Hafyz. He was alone there, and I didn't have any plans so pergi sana teman dia kejap makan Teppanyaki haha. He told me many things about photography, his knowledge about it impressed me. I won't be surprised if one day he becomes a professional photog :)
Walked home, and had to get ready for family dinner. We had dinner at One Mont Kiara. The food was okay je la kan, but service sucks. Selamatla harini happy je so it's not worth it to be all emotional for such a simple thing.
Now I'm back at home. Exhausted gila. Haven't walked this much for ages. Blogging while waiting for my sister to come out from the toilet. Haha.
Happy sangat harini. Alhamdulillah. I'm very very thankful for today. Melampau lah rasanya if nak berdoa supaya setiap hari macam ni, tapi I berdoa supaya setiap hari biarlah rasa bahagia dan tenang sangat. Inshaallah. Thank You Allah :)
Kak Ummi came from Perak and slept over at my house. Woke up quite early, my family bought McDonald's for breakfast. Then Kak Ummi and I went to Jalan TAR, did some shopping hehehe.
Then Kak Zue and Atiq arrived at KL Sentral. They were from LCCT, Kak Zue from Kedah and Atiq from Kelantan. Farah also arrived from Shah Alam. She wears tudung now, we're all very happy for her. Alhamdulillah :)
So we went to Mid Valley, as what had been planned many weeks earlier. Had a super great time with them. Rindu sangat3 I wish they're still in KTT :( But I'm thankful enough to have the chance to have such wonderful friends :)
Then after berpisah di KL Sentral, went to Pavilion pulak jumpa Hafyz. He was alone there, and I didn't have any plans so pergi sana teman dia kejap makan Teppanyaki haha. He told me many things about photography, his knowledge about it impressed me. I won't be surprised if one day he becomes a professional photog :)
Walked home, and had to get ready for family dinner. We had dinner at One Mont Kiara. The food was okay je la kan, but service sucks. Selamatla harini happy je so it's not worth it to be all emotional for such a simple thing.
Now I'm back at home. Exhausted gila. Haven't walked this much for ages. Blogging while waiting for my sister to come out from the toilet. Haha.
Happy sangat harini. Alhamdulillah. I'm very very thankful for today. Melampau lah rasanya if nak berdoa supaya setiap hari macam ni, tapi I berdoa supaya setiap hari biarlah rasa bahagia dan tenang sangat. Inshaallah. Thank You Allah :)
Thursday, 1 March 2012
I miss my Uda :(
I haven't seen her for nearly a month. Afaf called me just now and we talked about Uda.I pity her, being all alone and lonely the house. I miss her :(
My sister who just got married last year, though still lives in that same house, but is busy with her husband. Too busy to bother with other things that happen in the house.
My other who's getting married in June is too busy with her fiancé that when we asked her to bring Uda out jalan2, she's 'tired with work'.
I know I always fight with her, melawan and pemalas gila. But deep inside my heart I love her so so much. Seeing her like this breaks my heart to million pieces. If I could, seriously I wouldn't mind going back and forth KL to Sepang everyday. Setakat toll and fuel tu apalah sangat. Time pun 1.5 hour je pergi balik. Energy? Tak terbalas pun energy yang Uda guna to raise me up.
Ya Allah. Pedihnya rasa hati. How I wish I could be there for her all the time. How I wish I could be that little girl again who can sit around at home, annoying her all day long. At least she won't feel lonely. Too bad, banyak urusan yang harus aku selesaikan demi masa depan.
I'll work the hardest. I'll make her proud of me, I'll make sure he won't regret a second of raising me up. Inshallah. Dear God, the only thing I ask from You is to hold her when I'm not around. When I'm much too far away. Please ya Allah. Make her happy.
My sister who just got married last year, though still lives in that same house, but is busy with her husband. Too busy to bother with other things that happen in the house.
My other who's getting married in June is too busy with her fiancé that when we asked her to bring Uda out jalan2, she's 'tired with work'.
I know I always fight with her, melawan and pemalas gila. But deep inside my heart I love her so so much. Seeing her like this breaks my heart to million pieces. If I could, seriously I wouldn't mind going back and forth KL to Sepang everyday. Setakat toll and fuel tu apalah sangat. Time pun 1.5 hour je pergi balik. Energy? Tak terbalas pun energy yang Uda guna to raise me up.
Ya Allah. Pedihnya rasa hati. How I wish I could be there for her all the time. How I wish I could be that little girl again who can sit around at home, annoying her all day long. At least she won't feel lonely. Too bad, banyak urusan yang harus aku selesaikan demi masa depan.
I'll work the hardest. I'll make her proud of me, I'll make sure he won't regret a second of raising me up. Inshallah. Dear God, the only thing I ask from You is to hold her when I'm not around. When I'm much too far away. Please ya Allah. Make her happy.
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