Madihahh.

Okay, another one.

2012-02-10T13:20:00.001+08:00

I know I shouldn't be thinking about dreams too much, but...okay this dream is just so weird okay. *Note that I've been having extremely weird dreams yang tiada kaitan dengan hidup, like really. The people in my dream are sometimes the people I don't even know, or I haven't thought about for ages!

Last night, I dreamed that I was at my dad's house, was fine with him at first then things got worse and worse. I was wearing school uniform, with tudung of course. Suddenly I feel my kurung basah on the chest area, when I lifted up my tudung, my kurung was soaked in BLOOD!

When I checked, there was literally a hole on my chest to my heart. Blood was oozing out and suddenly I was at a hospital. And out of all the people here in KTT, Afiq (ketua BADAR) was at the hospital with some other guys from KTT. I told him something like "If I die, tell someone *can't rmbr who* I'm sorry."

Then I was admitted at the I-dont-know-second-or-third class, just beds with fans, no room nor air-conditioned. I said "Here? Seriously? Nak bilik!"

Then I can't remember why I can't get the first class room pfftt -__-' but I remember vividly the feeling when I can hardly breathe, it's so scary like I was really facing death!

Dah baca doa tidur okay malam tadi :( oh God that was scary. But I believe it's nothing but just mainan tidur like what people always say, inshaAllah.

Ridiculous, yet Awesome!

2012-02-06T13:24:00.001+08:00

Okay, lately I've been having ridiculously awesome dreams. Here are some of them.

A few nights ago, I dreamed that I saved Malaysia from corruption. There were very few people left. After some hardwork, all the ministers surrender and admitted whatever they've done wrong. I was helped by a very nice Indian dude. It was AWESOME! I remember running here and there, up and down in shopping malls. Hahahahaha LIKE A BOSS!

And last was an even more random, awesome dream! Nadia if you're reading this, don't hate me. I dreamed about DLS! HAHAHA! DLS is a nickname for a Chinese dude in SAB, whom Nadia and I have been secretly having a crush on.

I was sitting at a Mamak stall with someone when he came. We were talking when suddenly he showed me his phone, and he put my picture as the wallpaper! HAHAHA. So sweet kan? Then I ckp let's take a picture together so that I can make it as my wallpaper. Kami sangat mesra ketika bergambar HAHAHA. If only I can really have those pictures taken homaigodd. I haven't had such a sweet dream for so long, I can't stop smiling hahahahahhaha.

But it's just weird coz none of those dreams ada kaitan dengan hidup. I've never even thought of becoming Malaysia's hero, and the thought of DLS had NEVER cross my mind for ages. Haha. Biasalah, mimpi mainan tidur, and, I had fun :p

Beautiful Love Songs :)

2012-02-05T12:24:00.001+08:00

These are my two favorite love songs. The lyrics were very beautifully written :)

First, it's Bonds of love.

Why are you so sad
And why is it so bad
When some one leaves you behind

Won't you ever know
Don't you realize
It's just a part of life

When you fall in love With someone
Some time it's smile with a broken heart
When you fall in love With Allah
The bonds of love survive

No mountain's too high when there's will
No river's too wide believe there's a way

Allah, we belong to You
And everything we do
We do it all for You
Allah, always by our side
Guiding us to the light
Everything shines bright
No matter day or night.

Another is Cinta Hakiki.

Cinta Hakiki

Telah lama cinta terbiar dari cinta yang suci
Telah lama cinta tersasar dari cinta hakiki
Kerna sekian lamanya, manusia dibuai cinta nafsu
Kita sering menyangka, cinta manusia itu yang sejati

Telah lama cinta terbiar dari cinta yang suci
Telah lama cinta tersasar dari cinta hakiki
Namun lupakah kita, cinta nafsu selalu mengecewakan
Sering berubah tidak menentu, seperti pantai dipukul ombak.

Telah lama cinta terbiar dari cinta yang suci
Telah lama cinta tersasar dari cinta hakiki
Cintakan Allah cinta sebenarnya
Itulah cinta yang sejati

Kasihlah sesama manusia kerana cinta yang hakiki hanya untuk Tuhan yang esa~

Cintakan Allah tiada kecewa
Dikau kan tenang diwaktu susah

Kembalilah kepada Tuhan
Dia kan tetap menanti
Kehadiran hambaNya yang sebenar pasrah
Cinta kasih sayangNya tidak bertepi.

Both songs are by Raihan. Beautiful lyrics, no? This is love, true love :) Subhanallah :)

Melody vs. Lyrics

2012-02-05T01:21:00.001+08:00

I'm so sick of love songs, really. Okay maybe that's just cause I'm #foreveralone. But seriously, aren't you?! True that the melodies are beautiful, but the lyrics? Blerghh.

First, it's Someone Like You by Adele. "Nevermind I'll find someone like you." is this for real? You wanna find someone like that again? You wanna get your heart broken again? And don't you pity the next guy you'll be with? Obviously you won't love him for who he is, he's like a shadow of your ex and it's just so mean of you to do that. As for me, no way. I'd never wanna find someone like him. I want someone better, someone who really loves me, not making me as the second choice.

Next is Love You Like A Love Song by er er is it Selena Gomez or Demi Lovato? Whatever. You definitely know that song right. "Love you like a love song" "keep hitting repeat". Now tell me, how many times can you possibly repeat that song before you get bored? So you see the person you love for a few times, and get bored, so you'll just stop loving that person?

Also Putus by Melda Ahmad. "Aku ingin kau tahu betapa ku gembira, tidak lagi bersamamu. Namun pastinya nanti kau akan sedari, yang kau perlu cintaku." Okay this song, hmm takde la disagree sgt but still.... The song kononnya she already moved on, with a new guy who definitely loves her more, then why nak kena fikir about her ex lagi? Why would she care if he regretted breaking up with her? He no longer matters in her life. If memang dah move on and she really loves the current guy, she wouldn't waste a second writing that song to make her ex realize it was his loss.

Okay I guess that's enough examples of sickening lyrics of love songs. But still I can't help loving them though. Haha. I'm not a hater of any of those singers okay. I love those songs, it's just that the lyrics are blerghhh.

Guess that's all for tonight. Assalamualaikum :)

Btw,
It's our Prophet Muhammad PBUH's birthday!!! Maulidur Rasul :) Jom selawat banyak2 hadiakan untuk baginda, jalankan sunnah baginda. Not only for today lah kan, juga hari2 yang berikutnya. Selamat malam! xx

Wake up!

2012-02-04T14:53:00.001+08:00

I've been taking things too lightly lately, especially when it comes to study.

My mid-sem results suck really badly. I've never scored such horrible grades for so long already. Though I already expected it, but still of course I hope for the better.

AS trial is coming real soon, and the real AS is not so long after. I need to wake up and realize that things are no longer as simple as it was back in school.

I can do better, I just gotta work harder.

Farhan Zedric.

2012-02-03T02:57:00.001+08:00

It's such a shame that he's not real.
Yes, you can laugh about it, you can laugh at me and shove it to my face about how stupid I was back then. How stupid I was to actually fall for a virtual person.

One confession I gotta make here is, sometimes I do miss him. The whole story was disgusting and sickening, but part of the memory was just....unforgettably sweet.

If only he was real, if only such a perfect guy like this Farhan Zedric really loves me, I'd never let him go. Back then, though there were so many doubts about him, a tiny part of me wish it wasn't true, until the confrontation day came and everything was confirmed.

Yes, and to 'Farhan', if you still read this blog, you can laugh as much as you want to.

No, it's not that I still have feelings for it or whatever okay, don't get me wrong. It's just a random thought that crosses my mind late at night when I can't sleep.

Sickening and disgusting as it is, that was one experience that I can never ever forget. Not that I want to even if I could. It was a great story. I've forgiven you, and I gotta say, thanks for the memories.

Cinta muka buku? Better not.

The past and the future.

2012-01-31T22:08:00.001+08:00

Every saint has a past and every sinner has a future. People can change, either for the better, or for the worse. And the only thing that matters, is what you are at the end.

Well, previously, I had been a very good girl. Until at one point of my teenage life where my heart was filled with curiosity. I tried a few bad things, to experience what it feels like. There were also things I regret doing, but what's done cannot be undone.

But also, I know, Allah itu Maha Pengampun, Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang. Now, I'm trying to be the old me back, a better version, hopefully. I'll stop doing things that I shouldn't even have done at the first place.

Everyday, I pray to Allah to make me a better Muslimah, to show me the right path and shower me with His blessings. I pray the same for my family and friends. Inshallah, Amin.

Ujian.

2012-01-30T15:38:00.001+08:00

Went out with my friends. They were SUPPOSED to send me back to college but....yeah.

And my family was in Perak, and my sister with her husband were at a wedding.

It was already 830pm and a friend yang I selalu tumpang went back early pulak yesterday.

So yeah, I was totally pissed off. Cancelling plan at the very last minute? Thanks a lot.

But come to think of it again, maybe Allah did all this to make it easier for me to go back to KTT. As in, I rasa berat sangat nak balik KTT, and I wanna stay at home.

With that happened, I did spend more time at home and I'd do anything to go back to college. Thanks to my bro who sent me at 12am. I really appreciate that, I mean, really. No sarcasm here.

I've never cried as badly as yesterday, and it felt great. Alhamdulillah. Allah always knows what's best for you. Jangan sesekali bersangka buruk terhadap Dia :)

Lively, just like how we used to be :)

2012-01-27T21:20:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah. Life is just getting better day after day. I feel great, I start looking at things from a different angle. I start taking everything into account. And thank God for every single little things, which are also the great blessings :)

And today, I spent the whole day with a girlfriend that I really love. We haven't spent such quality times for ages. Now that things are back to normal, it feels like we were back being 16 again, a better version maybe. Wallahualam.

Let's get started on our bucket list! :)

Be strong <3 :)

2012-01-27T18:15:00.001+08:00

Syera, I'm so sorry I can't be much of a help right now. When it comes to family matters, I suck at giving advices. I'm not a good daughter myself, preaching without practising is just...not right.

I'm so sorry. I hope your mom gets well soon. Let's all pray for her mom's health kay? Inshallah she'll be fine. Have faith in Allah. Percaya, Dia takkan uji hambaNya dengan sesuatu yang dia tak mampu. Sabar banyak2, and don't stop praying, don't give up! :)

Pintaku yang terakhir.

2012-01-26T00:27:00.002+08:00

This year, hopefully it would be my last year celebrating my birthday here, in Malaysia. Next year insyaallah by my birthday dah fly ke India :) *amin amin ya rabbal alamin*

This is crazy, but I'm gonna blog about how I wish my birthday this year would be :)

As usual, every year, I've always wanted a proper gift in a beautiful box with a ribbon. I've got some before, and sometimes I love the packaging more than what's inside. Hahaha.

And a whole cake with candles! Macam my housemates surprised me last year. Haha sweet sang-at diorang. And if this year I could get a whole cake of Triple Decker Cheese cake from Coffe Bean, I'd be the happiest girl on earth. But but, it's just impossible, unless I buy it for myself :/

My birthday this year is on a Saturday. If I am in college, of course I wish for my family or friend(s) to come and visit me there. If I am at home, I still wish the same.

Oh, an Arsenal jersey with my name at the back would be awesome :3 HAHAHA

But well actually, it all doesn't really matter. It's just....I want my birthday this year to be a memorable one. Not just like the previous years, where on my birthday, I just sit, lazing around at home. Get a few texts and calls from my very few true friends who actually remember my birthday at midnight. And that's all. Guess what? I don't even remember having at least a birthday dinner last year.

I'm hoping for something different, something better this year. But nahh, not expecting a thing though. I've a feeling it will just be the same. In my family, birthdays are nothing. Especially my birthday, I guess? It's just another ordinary day.

If I'm not mistaken, my birthday this year falls on the very 1st day of Ramadan. I guess I can celebrate the night by performing tarawih, and Allah can give me lots of rewards on my birthday. Hihihi :3

And hopefully, I'll still be alive for Ramadhan this year. Can't wait for it! :D

Dah, enough with the craps and angan2. Assalamualaikum y'all :)

Blogging #LikeABoss.

2012-01-25T01:52:00.001+08:00

Haha. I've been blogging a lot lately. Biasalah, it's school break and I don't really have much things to do at home. So there are many random things that cross my empty mind.

Some people say, "Apa guna korang berdoa kat twitter/fb/dll. Orang doa kat Allah."

Okay, I agree with that. Of course, we pray to our Most Merciful God, Allah SWT. But sometimes we just feel like letting it out. And when many people read it, many people aminkan apa yang kita tulis, isn't that a very good thing?

It's like, let's say when I was nervous waiting for my results, of course I pray to Allah for everything to be perfectly fine. But also, of course I want people to pray for me too, so I'll tweet about it.

And apa salahnya kan nak spread doa? Somehow kita remind orang lain juga. Okay let's say it's early in the morning and I tweet "HELLO PEOPLE! Morning! How are youuu doing today?" and compare it with "Assalamualaikum people! What a beautiful morning. Let's pray to Allah for today to be a good day :D"

Okay, which one akan lebih menyedarkan? At least awal2 Kita dah ajak kawan2 untuk ingat, dan doa dekat Allah sama2 kan?

Okay it's just something that cross my mind, I'm sleepy already sebenarnya ni.

Assalamualaikum readers, may Allah bless us all. Goodnight :)

Alhamdulillah :)

2012-01-24T21:19:00.001+08:00

In the Quran, it states that the first priority in your life is Allaah, second is your parents, next is family, fourth is the orphans and lastly, the poor.

And this post, would be about how I'm very thankful to have a family like mine. Well, it's not a perfect family, it's a broken family to be exact.

I no longer have my parents. But you know, they say Allah won't test you with something that is beyond your limit. So, Allah gives me a wonderful aunt and awesome siblings.

Though I always fight with them, though when we fight I always always curse, but of course, deep inside I love each and every one of them to the core of my heart.

I have the best aunt in the world, she has been taken care of us since my eldest sister was 6 months old (and now she's already 29). She's such a blessing to my family :)

My sisters, they're the best. I can share anything and everything with them. Well, since I have 3 sisters, each of them have different secrets HAHA :p So yeah, I tell different sisters about different things, last2 terkeluarlah segala isi hati :)

My brothers, though they get on my nerves sometimes and bully me almost ALL the time, they're cool. The family would be scarily quiet without them yang sangatlah kuat menyakat orang.

So yeah, I'm happy to have them with me, I'm very thankful :) I'm blessed to have grown in this family. Alhamdulillah ya Allah, may your blessings be with us till the end. Inshallah :)

Johor :)

2012-01-24T11:41:00.001+08:00

Went to Johor Premium Outlet with my family yesterday, and no I won't go there again -.-'

The 3 hours journey, the expensive tolls and parking rate, the crowd. Oh lord. It wasn't worth it at all. Baiklah pergi shopping kat pavilion or kLCC je. Seriously.

But it was worth the experience la. Everyone was there, except Aiman -.-' even imran was there. Ntah pape Aiman ni.

Then singgah rumah Kakak's fiancé. Makan buah-buahan tempatan haha. Arrived home safely at around 1am.

And now , be prepared. A spam of my vain pictures. You are advised to stop reading to avoid an eyesore HAHA.

And and and these two are my favorite :3

Okay I know I'm vain shut ut it's my blog okay -.-' haha toodles!

Assalamualaikum :D

30 Things About Me :)

2012-01-24T02:43:00.002+08:00

It is actually a TT on Twitter. But instead of spamming my TL with THIRTY facts, I decide to blog about it :)

1. I am, obviously, a muslimah :)

2. I'm trying my best to devote myself to my one and only lord, Allah SWT.

3. I love my mom, my aunt and my siblings. They're my family, they're my best friends :)

4. I love very much the friends I mentioned in the previous posts <3

5. I've been blogging since form 2, and miraculously this blog is still alive. It's already 7 years old!

6. My dream car, and inshaAllah my first car, will be Volkswagen Beetle, a yellow one :D

7. This is my favorite number!

8. InshaAllah if everything goes well, I'm going to India next year to study dentistry :D

9. I used to be so weak, but as I get closer to Allah, I realize my heart has grown stronger. Alhamdulillah ya Allah :)

10. I used to HATE biology and LOVE physics and maths. Now everything dah terbalik.

11. I think merak is one of the most beautiful creation on earth. Especially the white peacock, subhanallah.

12. I prefer Coffee Bean more than Starbucks. The triple decker cheesecake is heavenly!

13. As for ice blended, my favorite is caramel.

14. One thing I love love love at Starbucks is the sheperd's pie (I don't know how to spell it -.-')

15. I love the smell of roses. Oh myy <3

16. I was a SABian, and still am. A true SABian from form 1 up to form 5 :)

17. I am in KTT. How I wish I love KTT like how I love SAB but....another year to survive :)

18. My favorite colors are white and red! And pink maybe, and grey and er er brown? Hahaha. I hate people who says white is not a color. IT IS OKAY!

19. I love shoes! Flats, heels. Oh my, suka gila gila gila!

20. I love to try out new styles. Sometimes even when people hate it, but I love it, I'll go on with it. Booo yeah! Haha.

21. I dislike being the photographer, coz if I were the photographer, I won't be in the picture kan? *from here I guess you can already sense my vanity* HAHA

22. I hate it hate it hate it when people call any other kids Adik in my house. IM THE ONLY ADIK IN THE HOUSE OK!

23. When I was in primary school, scoring 100 for English, Maths, BM and Agama is a piece of cake. How I wish it's still like that up till now T-T haha.

24. I'm quite good at baking and cooking western food, but all those nasi dan lauk2 I fail miserably. Susah gila kot -.-'

25. I nak kahwin awal, tapi sampai sekarang calon ke apa pun takde. So saya pasrah, bila ada jodoh kahwinlah. *ok from here pulak you can sense my kegatalan HAHAHA*

26. My eating pattern is weird. Bila appetite ada, I can eat a buffalo. Bila appetite takde, I can survive days without eating anything at all.

27. I'm 159cm and 43kg. Maximum weight ever achieved it 45.5kg. Go ahead envy me HAHAHA oh my god JK okay. Alhamdulillah bersyukur dengan nikmat Allah ini hehehe :)

28. My iPhone has a name, and it's Bubu! Haha comel tak comel tak? :3

29. I really really really wanna eat steak now, I've been wanting to since the past few months tapi tapi taktau nak pergi dgn siapa. Sedih :( if sampai birthday pun idaman tak tercapai, I'll go eat steak at Chili's alone all alone. #foreveralone

30. At the moment it's 240am and I'm so exhausted I just got back from Johor so now I wanna sleep.

Haha. Assalamualaikum you allsss :)

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Have you?

2012-01-22T18:19:00.001+08:00

There are moments where every little things seem to piss you off.

I face it quite often. I hate it, feeling it now. I feel like strangling everyone who talks to me. Every words that comes out from their mouth annoy the crap out of me. I feel so like an emo -.-'

Ya Allah, tenangkan lah hati hambaMu sorang ni. Jauhkanlah dari syaitan yang sentiasa menghasut hati untuk rasa gelisah. Amin.

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Money can't buy us happiness.

2012-01-22T11:35:00.001+08:00

I STRONGLY disagree.

Okay, I'm not saying I'm not happy right now, I am. But if I have much money, right now I'll buy a ticket to....Phuket or Paris or Vienna or any beautiful, faraway places. Traveling alone on my own, being the happiest girl ever.

I can eat whatever I want, the most expensive steak in the world, the most delicious chocolate ever made and cakes oh my god. Okay maybe there's a disadvantage there, I'll be fat and I won't be happy. But wait, with money I can go to slimming centers haaaa :p

I can go shopping all the time buying the things I want. That beautiful green pants in KLCC I forgot what shop it was in, all the flats in every shops, those beautiful iPhone cases. Okay let's not get to my full shopping list.

And I can buy my dream car, a yellow VW Beetle and yes, I'll be the happiest happiest person ever alive if I can buy that car. I've wanted it since I was a kid. It'll be my first car in the future. InshaAllah. Berangan kejap haha.

So yeah, without money, I'll never get any of that.

No I am NOT a gold digger okay. Just, let's be realistic here. Of course you need money to be happy. For things to go with the flow, get things that you want, do the things you've always dreamed of doing.

So yeah, money IS important in life though it can't literally buy you happiness, but without money life sucks. Btw dear JPA, cepat lah masukkan allowance for second sem ni ye. I need money to feel happier -.-' haha.

Assalamualaikum babaii :)

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Friends forever and after :)

2012-01-21T00:23:00.001+08:00

The day I met you, I found a friend.
A friendship that I pray will never end.

Your smile; so sweet so bright,
Keep me going When day was as dark as night.

You never judge me,
You understand my sorrow,
You tell me it needn't be that way.
You taught me how to love myself,
You make the torturous life bearable,
You give me the hope of a better tomorrow.

There were times when we didn't see eye to eye,
There were days when both of us cried,
But even so we made it through,
Our friendship hasn't yet died.

Circumstances have pulled us apart,
We are separated by miles.
Truly, the only thing that keeps me going
Is my treasured memory of your smiles.

This friendship we share is priceless,
I hope it grows and flourishes,
And lasts infinitely.

You are special to me,
You are my one true friend,
My best of friends.

Especially dedicated to ;

Norkhalizatul Akmal, Nur Fatin 'Aqilah, Aqilah Nadirah, Nor Edzfarina and last but not least, Syahirah Rosli :)

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Something to share :)

2012-01-19T01:10:00.001+08:00

If you find yourself in misery, feeling uneasy, lonely, empty and whatnot, remember, you always have Allah with you. He's never far away :)

In the 28th verse of Suraah Ar-Ra'd, He said ;

Those who believed, and whose hearts find rest in the remembrance of Allah, for their hearts find comfort on the side of Allah, those who are pleased to have Him as their Protector and Supporter. Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest. And surely, He is worthy of it.

Bahasa mudahnya, sesiapa yang mengingati Allah SWT, hati akan menjadi tenang. InshaaAllah.

Alhamdulillah, this verse has made me an unbelievably strong person. I hope it works the same way for you too. Have faith :)

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Dear diary....no more :(

2012-01-10T22:04:00.001+08:00

Have I told you guys I kept diaries? I started when I was in primary 5, or 6, I'm not sure. But I've stopped. I opened my latest diary a few days ago, and the last entry was the prom night. Which was in 2010! I feel so sad. Blame the technology, blame my lazy ass.

Sigh. I wanna continue writing but I don't think I have the time to. Okay, here I wanna let you know a random fact about me, I LOVE notebooks!

I hate going to the stationery part in Parkson or iSetan, or Kinokuniya. Oh my god, the notebooks are usually VERY SUPER CUTE. So I keep buying and buying, kononnya for the upcoming years diaries. Mind the word KONONNYA.

Now they're all empty. But actually I wanna tell you about my favorite notebook :3 It was quite pricey, but too cute to ignore. Haha.

It's a 100 day love journal. Get it? Haha. It's still empty though. I haven't found anyone worth to be written about. I don't wanna waste that lovely pink hardcover journal. I hope the person I'll be writing about in that book would be my Mr. Right. Siapakah gerangan? I have no idea at all. Wallahualam. One fine beautiful day, when I finally find that someone, I'll definitely blog about it. Haha.

Oh but wait, there's a correction to be made. I don't wanna find my Mr. Right, I wanna BE FOUND. I'm in no intention, or let alone desperation to have a boyfriend though I've been single for......the past 19 years :P I'm happily single, and my heart is filled with my love for Allah :)

Hihi bye bye, Assalamualaikum :)

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Finally, 2012 :)

2012-01-07T16:06:00.001+08:00

I've no idea why, this new year of 2012 feels very different. Some of my friends say it's different, in a bad way. As for me, I don't know why I feel like this 2012 is like a new start. I feel fresh. Unlike the previous years. I know it sounds very cliche, but that's just how I feel this time.

I can pray for nothing else but for the days to get better and better. So far it has been good, I've been strong, and things are fine. My appetite is back, I'm on my way to getting back on track for my studies, but one thing I don't think I could ever change is......my screwed up sleeping pattern -.-' haha.

Mid semester examinations in 2 weeks time. I'm very worried, I haven't done my revisions yet. Oh oh and, I think there is a chance of me getting a B for my Maths paper [for Sem 1's final exam], and if I do means I pass the cut-off point! Inshaalaah :D

Hihihi. Bye bye Assalamualaikum :)

Wait, before that, I wanna add another resolution. No more cursing, especially while blogging! Haha. Okay tu je, later~ ;)

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Hari Terakhir.

2011-12-31T13:28:00.001+08:00

Pejam celik, pejam celik, habis dah tahun 2011. Saja rasa nak tulis post ni in bm. Banyak sangat benda jadi tahun ni, well, the previous post summarized it all.

I tahu, sangatlah cliche nak cakap tahun 2011 ni banyak sangatsangat benda jadi. Tiaptiap tahun pun banyak benda jadi kan? Tapi seriously, 2011 memang sangat.......penuh dengan memori. Yang bahagia, yang sedih, yang patah hati berkecai seribu, yang gelak sampai termuntah.

Tapi juga, Alhamdulillah, ujianujian yang diberi pada I tahun ni sangat mendekatkan I dengan Allah SWT. Hampir setiap hari air mata ni mengalir mengadu dekat Dia. Alhamdulillah, I bersyukur sangat diberi hidayah yang priceless sangat ni.

Jadi, azam untuk 2012 yang I nak sangatsangat ialah menjadi sangat dekat dengan Allah. Sebelum ni, solat pun tak ambil serious sangat, berdoa bila susah je. Harapharap lepas ni, I akan lebih rajin beribadah, bukan buat yang fardhu je, nak buat juga yang sampingan perkara sunat tu. Harihari berdoa, tak kiralah senang ke susah, busy ke lapang. I doakan benda yang sama untuk semua Muslim. Sesatlah korang kemana pun, when you return to Allah, inshaAllah semua akan jadi baik :)

Okay panjang pulak elaboration untuk first azam tu kan. Second, of course lah nak score yang terbaik untuk both my A-level exams bulan June dengan November nanti. I nak score 20 points for both, inshaAllah. Kena lebih rajin usaha, kurangkan buat bendabenda lagha buang masa ni.

Hurm dua tu je la kot azam untuk 2012. Yang lain kecil2 punya azam tu tak boleh pula nak fikir sekarang. Tapi of course, jomlah kita doa ramairamai semoga harihari akan datang jadi lebih baik dari sebelumnya. Amin :)

Tu je setakat ni, Assalamualaikum :)

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Sayangs of my life.

2011-12-26T12:59:00.002+08:00

First, it's Syahirah Rosli. She's been here for me, since the past few weeks. Suka sangat SPM has ended, I don't know what I'd do without her.

Next is Norkhalizatul Akmal. She's always been the one who wipes my tears. Really, I don't know how many times I've called her, crying. She's best bro (Y)

So does Nublan Zaki. I've cried so many times to him, and he's always there for me, giving good advices.

Next is Aqilah Nadirah. Well, sorry to put your name at this bottom, but it's just, the problem I'm facing now, I can't really tell you. You know it right? But I know, you'll always be there for me if ever I need you :)

Aqilah Ridzwan. Yang ni takyah cakap, sentiasa sangat sweet :) sometimes I know, she's not okay, but she still tries her best to make me feel better. I'm sorry that I'm not good at comforting people, but you know I'm here for you :D

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Two-oh-oh-one

2011-12-25T15:25:00.001+08:00

I don't know how to comment on this one......long year. It's very quick, I mean it feels like my school life just ended a few months ago. But so many things happened this year. Like, ther are many phases of life.

Okay as usual, before new year starts, an overall view of my life in 2011.

January, I just finished my SPM, spent one month in Adelaide. I had the time of my life, had a hell lot of fun without having a worry about the world.

Came back in February, hunted for a job, worked as a waitress for about two months. Again, I had the time of life. I love how tired I get when I worked, when I get home, I slept like a log. I didn't even have the time to be worried about anything. And plus, the happiness when you get your pay :)

Oh yeah, SPM result, Alhamdulillah :) when I quit, I was busy with interviews, Alhamdulillah again, dapat scholarship JPA :) In May, I had all the time to myself. Sitting around at home, busy hanging out with friends.

End of June, college life started. Kolej Teknologi Timur, the place where I'm studying at right now. I enjoyed it there, especially when Kak Zue, Kak Ummi and Kak Elle was still there. Now, it's just fine.

Also, it was when college started that I started to get close to him. Now I regretted it. I fall deeper and deeper and deeper, and now I can't get up. I'm stuck on the ground, with my heart crushed into the tiniest little piece.

Okay takyah nak membebel kat sini. Continue. In July ke? Ntah tak sure, it's Cicik's engagement. She got married in December. Also in December, my eldest sister got engaged. Heee. Those 3 events are like super awesome mosum :)

I hope the end of 2011, will also be the end of all the miseries and hurtful feelings. I hope 2012 will be a much better year. Resolutions? Haven't thought of it yet.

Assalamualaikum :)

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True love.

2011-12-23T15:55:00.001+08:00

HE's the one who's always always there with me. Let it be early in the morning or very late at night, HE's there, and will always be.

HE'll definitely listen to me. As long as I make the effort to get close to HIM, HE'll get much much closer to me. When I get to feel HIS love, which is almost all of the time, everything just gets much better. It feels heavenly, pure bliss.

I can ask anything from HIM, a warmth of the heart, a little peace of mind, cahaya petunjuk, rezeki, name it. As long as it's not something ridiculous, InshaaAllah I'll get it. I believe in HIM.

HE never breaks HIS promises. And HE'll never, EVER break my heart. When it comes to HIM, I'll never cry because of a heartbreak. I cry because of the beauty of his love, how HE makes me feel. It's always the tears of happiness. Or sometimes, it's because I feel so sinful for doing things HE doesn't like.

Sometimes even when I don't remember HIM, I know HE never for even one second forget about me. It's the most pure kind of love.

It's my love for Allah SWT. The one who always always listens to my prayers, my rants. Thank You Allah. I'm very thankful to be born as a Muslim. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Allahuakbar. :)

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Train station.

2011-12-23T14:04:00.001+08:00

I was waiting alone, as always. Suddenly there's a middle-aged lady came sitting beside me with her little daughter.

At first I felt nothing, and then I overheard their conversation, I saw how they are very close and how the daughter is very manja with her mom.

Without me realizing, tears were rolling down my cheek the whole time I was looking at them. Then I realized, ya Allah, I miss her so much.

I dreamed of her last night. I merajuk with her cause she had never sent me back to college, padahal I'm already in my second semester. So she promised, she'll send me the next time.

When I woke up, I felt happy to see her, but also I felt like there's a hole in my heart. Again, it hits me harder, I really really miss her. I wish I could mengadu to you like how this little girl beside me mengadu everything to her mom.

How I wish the dream was real. How I wish you were really here to send me back to college. How I wish I could have just one more lunch with you. I miss you so much. I wish you were here :(

Finally :)

2011-12-18T17:11:00.001+08:00

I can't remember when was the last time we spent so much time together. Though it was super tiring yesterday, everything was worth it.

Best friends for life :)

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Feelings, Love.

2011-12-16T01:32:00.001+08:00

Okay this post might be a little bit too mushy, but I can't help blogging about it. It's been on my mind, bugging me!

Well, What do I know about love? It's not like I've been in a relationship before. However, that doesn't mean I've never had feelings for anyone.

One thing I know about love is that, you can't stop it. It's impossible to stop yourself from falling for someone. No matter how hard you try to ignore it, no matter how you try convince yourself "No I don't love him, he's just no one", it won't work. Maybe it will, for a few seconds, but by the end of the day, you'll just realize how much you love him and miss him.

This person you truly love usually have a very strong power on your emotions. He can make you laugh on your verge of tears, he can make you cry even when things just felt so right. Even his emotions affect yours. When you know he's sad, or even when you don't know, you can just feel it. I don't know how is that possible.

He'll never leave your mind for even a second. No matter how busy, how tired, how distracted you are. And when you hear his voice at the end of an exhausting, disastrous, horrible day, everything simply becomes perfect again. His soothing voice will just wash away all the things that bother you.

Obviously, he's always always an exception. All girls have a list of things they want their guy to have, and to not do, take smoking for example. But when it comes to this one super special someone, it just doesn't matter anymore. All that you care about is you love him, for you don't know what reasons, and of course, if he loves you back it's a dream come true. If he doesn't, you'd be patiently waiting, you have faith in him.

And sometimes, even when the whole world is against you, even when your bestfriends don't approve, you'll still fight for it. Cause you believe, you strongly believe that the feelings you feel is true. It's LOVE. What do they know?

Well, I think it's obvious how madly in love I am right now. It scares me, really. Realizing that it can end anytime, who knows if suddenly all the feelings change and when I wake up tomorrow things are no longer the same? But well again, that's love. You risk your own heart. It's like giving a gun to someone, and trust them not to pull the trigger.

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500th post :)

2011-12-13T17:28:00.002+08:00

It feels like I've been writing for so long, baru 500 posts? Haha. I'm not actually writing for the 500th, it's just a coincidence. I'm actually gonna write about my achievement yang sangat sangat membanggakan :3

I SLEPT ALONE IN MY APARTMENT LAST NIGHT! HAHAHA. And yes, I'm VERY proud of myself HAHA. Alhamdulillah nothing bad happened, nothing 'weird' or whatsoever. It wasn't so bad after all. It wasn't as scary as I thought it'd be. Maybe it's just cause I'm in a very good mood :D

Of course it feels very different now, the seniors had left, and Farah wasn't home last night, it's just so not-ordinarily quiet. Guess that I just gotta deal with it for another year, it won't be so hard. You can do it Madihah! ;)

THE Wedding :)

2011-12-12T11:06:00.001+08:00

It's the first first wedding in the family, my second sister (Cicik's) wedding.

The Solemnization 10.12.2011

She is now officially someone's wife, Uzair's wife :)

And yesterday, 11.12.2011, was the wedding ceremony, at Dewan Bahasa. I can't wait to see the pictures taken by Amrul Kareem! He's such an awesome photographer. Haven't seem him for so long, and when he saw me he was like "Eh, dah besar!" haha.

Here's one of his shots

And this is just....me :p

Though the preparation was super duper extremely tiring, and my whole one week sem break was fully used to help for the ceremony, it was all worth it. The wedding was a blast!

Thanks to my friends who came/helped! Especially Aiza who had been helping since Friday might, also Sue Yii who helped with the henna.

Both Aqilahs, Atul, Erin, Haris. Syera, Dini, Ann, Elina and Zetty. Nublan and partner, also Reezal. Seriously, I was glad you guys came :D

Andddd, lagi 2 weeks will be my eldest sister's engagement pula and inshaAllah there'll be another wedding somewhere in June/July of 2012.

Semoga berbahagia selamanya Khadijah & Uzair <3

xoxo

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Blissfulness of life :)

2011-12-05T11:43:00.001+08:00

No more PMS, stressful exams are over, and things are falling perfectly into their places.

"Ketika hujan, kita berdoa kepada Allah supaya memberi kita matahari. Tetapi hujan semakin lebat, kita tercari-cari, di mana matahari? Rupa-rupanya, Allah mahu menghadiahkan kita pelangi :)"

That's a quote that totally fits my situation. I hope the rainbow stays. I hope this happiness that I'm feeling stays.

I haven't felt this way for so long. I'm content, I feel blessed. After all the sins I've committed, You still hear my prayers. Alhamdullilah, thank You Allah :)

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Lost and lonely.

2011-11-22T13:56:00.003+08:00

When the person you always turn to when you're sad becomes the reason for your tears, you can't help but to feel hopeless, and depressed, and sad, and empty, and lonely, unloved.

Why must the people I love leave? Why do they have to hurt me?

I love my mom with all my heart, I'd die for her. I'd do anything, everything for her, but she left before I had any chances of doing so.

I loved my dad, I thought that when she left, he'll be there for me. I was wrong, I've never been more wrong. He left too. Months after she did.

I love my siblings. 2 of my sisters are leaving soon. They're getting married, they're gonna have their own family soon enough, and again, I'm left.

The guy that I love, very much I could say, did exactly the thing that I told him would hurt me. Have I seen this coming? I'm not sure. But my heart has never felt so bad. I feel crushed, I feel betrayed. If it's possible to die because of heart break, I'd have died right away. You said you love me, you could at least hide the thing that you did so that I wouldn't have seen it, so that I wouldn't be this hurt. You keep me wondering, do you really mean whatever you said?

The people that I call my best friends back is high school, most of them are slowly drifting away. I can feel the bond between us weakens, and no, don't you even think of blaming the distance for that. Neither am I blaming anybody, we're just moving on different paths.

Well, maybe that's just life. People come, people go. Some people stay through out the story, some might just be a chapter of your life. Though there's a twist in my story where people just go and go and go, none will stay.

I can't blame anyone. Why would people stay in my life anyways, right? It's too complicated, what's with the never-ending dramas and continuous heartbreaks. Even if I were to choose, I'd rather be out of it.

Examinations.

2011-11-11T14:09:00.002+08:00

My seniors are now having their A2 examinations. It's ending soon. My prayers are always with you, especially Kak Zue, Kak Ummi, Kak Elle, Kak Lola, Kak Imah, Kak Izah and more.

My juniors are having SPM in a few days, also my beloved friend 'Aqilah Ridzwan :) I believe in you guys, Syahirah Rosli, Munirah Diyana, Elina Shahira and Dini Dayana.

I wish you guys all the best. Sayang korang semua.

My final exam is coming soon, November the 29th. Pray for me too yeah? :)

Lembu oh lembu~

2011-11-06T09:37:00.001+08:00

In my apartment at KTT, the song "I've got the moves like Jagger" have been changed to "I've got lembu nak jaga" HAHA

Mood Eidul Adha punya pasal. And this morning, on my way back from from the mosque, the song 'Moves like jagger' was played on the radio. Terus teringat lembu HAHAHA

Okay anyways, Salam Eidul Adha loves <3

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Something I forgot to blog about.

2011-11-05T18:17:00.001+08:00

Tiba2 lately ni seronok je update blog kan. Haha. Anyways, I made a new specs! After ages, finally buat jugak. My power has increased dras-fucking-tically.

At first I freaked out like gila gila when she said it's 300+ for the left and 400 for the right. I was like "Biar betul....?"

But when I checked again yang masuk dalam bilk tu....

My right eye; from -175 to -275
My left eye; from -125 to -275

300/400 tu it's because I checked right after buka specs. Lenses dalam mata belum betul lagi. Okay whatever -.-'

Here's my new purple glasses! :D

Hihihi. Gambar sampingan, first outing dengan specs baru with me familia ~

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Gatal tahap babi punya OMG.

2011-11-05T17:47:00.001+08:00

Okay ni semua gara2 stalking. I stalked....well, name is not to be mentioned, let's call him Mr. X.

It's not him yang gatal, it's this one girl. Publicly calling him 'cute' when she doesn't even know him. And then publicly mengaku she nak mengurat but too bad he's taken.

I was like OMG EW GILA BABIIII SANGAT2 YIKESSS!

Haha okay dah. Sia2 pahala puasa. Toodles!

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Songs to share :)

2011-11-03T09:52:00.006+08:00

Currently, there's this one song that's been stuck in my mind since the first time I heard it. It's a song from Last Minute, entitled Maafkan Aku.

Also, the songs Be Strong, Whatever May Happen and Teman by Farahain Sahudin, my lovely roommate. The lyrics to her songs are beautifully written, I just love them all.

Maafkan Aku.

Dan apa yang kau mahukan dariku

Telah lama kukata

Yang kucinta sepenuh hatiku

Sampai bila harus aku menunggu cintamu

Dan pabila kusedari

Kaulah yang pertama kucintai

Maafkanlah diri ini

Jika takdir menjemputku dahulu

Hanya saat ini yang dapat menemanimu

Dengarkanlah sekali lagi

Jika kau tak percaya pada diriku'

Bila kuberkata, said "I love you".

Whatever May Happen.

It hurts when you tell me things

I never want to hear

I thought I can look up to you

Though you're not here.

Without you I will never be

Who I am today

Nothing's wrong even if we do

Things our own way.

Whatever may happen

I'll remember the way we laughed together

The way you sober

And the way we closure

Never wanted us to be over

Let's be friends forever

And hope that tomorrow will be better.

After all of this years

We've wasted our own tears

And hold on to what we called 'love'.

We learned from the past

Not everything lasts

We should go back to where we start it all.

Be Strong.

I sense that there's something wrong

By the way that you stare

Was it the things I did?

Oh, I wish you would share.

You used to be so fulfilling

Before she came along

She stole away your heart from me

And mess up our song.

Every time you smile at her

I'll just look away

"There's no point to loving you"

That's what people way.

I know that time can heal the pain

Leave it all to the past

So why I'm still crying though

We're never meant to last.

Do you know how much I'm hurting?

Do you feel like the way I am feeling?

If you think that this is the best for you

Then baby go on, I'll be strong.

Someday I'll see myself

In love with another guy.

Oh yeah, and another one, also by Farah.

Teman.

Kaulah dulu hidupku ketika

Hati terasa rindu

Aku bersyukur kepada Ilahi

Nikmat peluang dicintai.

Terima kasih wahai sahabatku

Kerana menahan keegoanku

Tiada siapa yang fahami aku

Tiada siapa cuma kamu

Satu yang kuharapkan

Kau hibur aku bila kusedih

Satu yang impikan

Kau setia walau jauh.

Andai aku ditakdirkan pergi dahulu

Kuharap kau tak lupa aku.

Here are the lyrics, and it comes together with the link. Enjoy! xxx :)

Hidup Ini Tidak Adil.

2011-10-31T00:12:00.002+08:00

I've no fucking idea how the hell I could possibly left my FUCKING PHONE. Holy shit. I've been cursing a lot lately, I just can't help it. Life is being a total asshole.

I'm so stressed out now that I don't have my phone with me. It's not that I want it to text or call anyone or anything, I just....want it. It's the only thing who's always with me, and how could I even...sigh. Yeah I'm being VERY dramatic here, but that's exactly what I feel right now.

My phone is my bestfriend, it's my everything. Sumpah rasa lagi sedih daripada kecewa patah hati. Oh lord :(

Teary eyes.

2011-10-29T12:23:00.001+08:00

Why is this all happening to me? Since when did I become such a sensitive loser shit. Tears always fill my eyes everytime I feel hurt. When previously, I could just happily ignore whatever that's happening.

The house will never be at peace again, will it? When adults act like a fucking brainless kids. When all you hear are screamings and all the things you see are frowning faces.

If only they know how my heart breaks everytime. I'm only strong on the surface, not all the way through. Though I'm already 18, I still feel like I'm too young for all these. How I envy my friends who live in a blissfully happy family.

Even now, it's already too much for me I can hardly endure it. I don't know how much longer I can take it.

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Story of My Life.

2011-10-28T14:20:00.001+08:00

I can convince everyone that I'm fine, I'm happy, I'm a kid with no problem. The fact is actually the total opposite.

I always try to, but there's just something about life that will never fail to find it's way to fuck everything up.

People always look at me as a very strong girl. I don't cry in front of people, I smile and laugh a lot. It's not that I pretend to be happy, just....ntah lah. I don't know how to say it.

Or maybe I'm having PMS right now that every single little thing seems to bother me. I hope things will get better soon. Inshaallah.

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Madihah the Vain Lady

2011-10-24T20:08:00.000+08:00

I was bored, so I tried out some new apps. This is cool. I know I'm vain, shut up. HAHA

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Time of my life :)

2011-10-23T22:14:00.001+08:00

The past few days were super duper tiring, accompanied Farah for jamming at Nilai, followed by lepak-ing sessions up to 4-5 in the morning.

Yesterday, I had a great time with my friends [Naqib, Syubli, Syawal Rahimi, Muiz] , even met a few new people [Aina, Safiah, Firdaus and Muiz's gf].

Arrived there at around 230pm, straight away joined them at the ice rink. At first I felt funny coz I haven't done ice skating in ages! It seemed impossible to be in balance -.- but after sometimes I get the rhythm and it was awesome!

Though my hips, my thigh, even my arms are hurt, there's a blister on my right foot, and my back - I can hardly bend down, but I had a lot of fun.

Then after we had our.....I don't know, late lunch or early dinner, pergi shopping *mentang2 allowance dah masuk kan. Haha. But I didn't buy anything pun. I was too tired to shop -.-

All in all, it was a great weekend!

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Unplanned.

2011-10-23T14:05:00.001+08:00

I was buying stuffs at TESCO Nilai, on my way back to KTT. As I was queuing up to pay, I received a text from Kak Ummi "Madihah balik bila? Ktorg nk gi Alamanda nk ikut?"

At first I thought they were kidding, but no. They're very random ._. *x sedar diri sendiri pun sama.

So I went to see them there, Watch 'Al-Hijab' again for the second time. I didn't watch it twice cause it's a very good movie [SO NOT ok. Though I gotta admit that it was scary], just...ntah -.-

I hate the fact that I am very easily terkejut. Though I was watching it for the second time, still menjerit cm apa -.- but it was hilarious to see Kak Elle and Kak Zue screamed xD HAHA

Balik at around 1130, kononnya super tired and sleepy, but I could hardly sleep T-T

Kami yang sangat selebet, late at night at Alamanda's toilet. LOL XD

Fashion Designer.

2011-10-16T14:35:00.001+08:00

Fashion designer, that was my very first ambition. I don't know how and why, at the age of 10, when all my friends wanted to be a doctor, a scientist or a policeman, I wanted to be a fashion designer.

But as time goes by, I just know that I don't have the talent. I can't even sew a straight line. The sketching and drawing part? Don't even bother to ask. I've always had things on my mind, but when I tried to express it in drawings, I failed. Miserably.

So yeah, I'm now in the science stream. Non-artsy-related.

kenapa tiba-tiba pasal fashion designer ni kan?

Coz I just came back from seeing my sister's wedding dress designer. I love to see how he sketched out the dress, how he could simply draw as my sister explained how she wanted the dress to be.

Jealous sgt :/ but it's okay, being a dentist is my second choice. And I can always go for sewing classes IF I WANTED TO. Pemalas antarangsa ni.

Haha okay enough with the long rants, gotta go mengaji now. Then nak kena balik KTT dah. Ciao~

Just another random topic.

2011-10-13T22:27:00.002+08:00

I've known him for quite sometime, before this I wasn't sure, but as time pass by, the feelings get stronger.

That's just a random line that crosses my mind. Okay not a random line, it's a specific someone. Let's just leave it to that. Wanna know who he is? Steal my phone, open my Facebook app, and see who's the only one I favourited. :p

What do I wanna write about actually? Hurmm. Ntah lah. Kehidupan saya semakin lama semakin ceria HAHAHA WTF. Okay, actually, I've decided to put all my problems, beside my studies, aside. I've stopped thinking about things that I know will end up hurting myself.

But there's one thing that keep bothering me, my sweet lovely crazy seniors are leaving SOON :( Their A2 exams is just around the corner, and after that 'Bye-bye :('. Worst thing is they might not come back since KI (Kursus Persediaan India) maybe tak ada :(

How am I gonna survive without them T_T Jadi loner lah lepas ni, macam mula2 masuk dulu. Aishh. Pasrah je lahh.

Setahun je pun. *Sedapkan hati*

HE knows best.

2011-10-11T00:20:00.002+08:00

I know I'd always been sad about my mom leaving me while I'm still very young. But now, after all the shits that happened since she's gone, I'm thankful to Allah for taking her away. HE took her away at the most perfect timing. It's actually a test for the ones who are still alive. If only she was still here, her heart would be broken into pieces. I could already see the tears in her eyes if she was here to listen to what the dickhead said.

I would never want a husband like hers, and yeah, I'm not gonna refer to him as my 'dad' anymore ever again. He doesn't want me, neither do I want him. I can survive without him. I can be happy without him. I can be successful without him. Inshaallah :)

Rasa macam nak luahkan everything here, but it's too personal and exposing everything here is just.....urmm nope.

All I can do is pray for His blessing, for Him to give me strength to go through all this. I've been strong all this while, and I will be strong through out my life.

I can do this. I'll make her proud of me, I'll make my aunt, my siblings proud of me. I wanna be proud of myself. One day when I've the title "Doctor", when I'm happy with my life, when I get everything that I wanted, I'll shove it in your face. At that time, you'll regret every single thing that you've done to me, to us. And at that time, you don't come to me and claim that I'm your daughter. I'm my mom's daughter, not yours.

Yours truly :)

ALL 12 :)

2011-09-16T23:46:00.001+08:00

I'm having more fun in college now. We're kinda like getting closer now :D

Last week, we went for an outing to Alamanda to watch a movie [Final Destination 5] TERBAIK! Haha.

Then on Friday we went up the Bukit KTT, played truth or dare up there. It was fun :D

And last wednesday we had a class photoshoot session, and it turned out that the photographer was Syubli's cousin. So there a few awesome pictures :D seronok! Haha.

New life, new friends :)

2011-09-15T13:50:00.003+08:00

Last Sunday, we all had a hell lot of fun!

First, my housemates, Kak Zue, Kak Ummi and Kak Elle came to my house. Then we went to Abang Poji's house.

Then, this is where the fun part started. We wanted to go to UM coz Kak Zue wanted to take her SPM cert from her friend. We made it to the PPUM, but then it was not connected to the Kolej 12 so we went out, then sesat sampai terpatah balik masuk highway -.-

So we decided to not go to UM and straight away go to UiTM Shah Alam to see Bab, sekali sesat lagi sampai terpatah balik to KL -__________- The super funny thing is when we were at the Dataran Merdeka, Kak Zue asked a policeman there for the direction to Shah Alam. He said "Ni KL! Bukan Shah Alam!" HAHAHA so he gave the direction. We had to make a u-turn, and there were many cars at that time, memang susah la kan. The policeman was so sweet he stopped the cars and let us make a u-turn! HAHAHA SUMPAH LAWAK! Then we all waved at him xD

Lepas tu tak jadi gi UiTM coz Bab was at Cobra, we went to see him there. Then to Farah's house. Tak sesat dah. Rendang at her house was DA BOMB ~.~ Later, we went to Sunway Pyramid. Semua mcm jakun gila hahaha. We arrived KTT at around 1130pm. It was a LOOOONG day, tiring but super awesome! :D

Kak Elle, Kak Zue, Myself, Farah and Kak Ummi :)

Relationships.

2011-09-10T13:33:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, my classmates and I went up the hill behind our college for fun. We played truth or dare up there, and obviously I chose truth. The question asked was "You memang tak pernah langsung ada boyfriend ke?". Well, yeah. It's true. I've never had a boyfriend in my 18 years of living. Someone actually said "Tak pernah ada boyfriend? Kesiannya."

I don't know why some people rush to be in a relationship, and usually such relationships just won't last. Maybe it's the peer pressure, when people around them are in a relationship, they want to have it too.

As for me, I don't find being single makes me unhappy. If you can't be happy on your own, what makes you think having another guy/girl in your life makes you happy? I haven't found anyone whom I think deserves the exception. True that I've liked many guys before, but liking them doesn't mean I want to be with them.

But don't get me wrong, that doesn't mean I want such serious relationships yang sampai kahwin ke apa (of course lah one day when I'm in a relationship I hope he'll be my first and my last, tapi kalau dah bukan jodoh nak buat macam mana kan?). It's just, I don't want to be in a relationship just for the sake of having a boyfriend. What kind of nonsense is that?

So yeah, that's my point of view for relationships. I'm in no need of having a boyfriend, but neither I'm saying I don't want one. It's just that when the time is right and its with the right person, it'll happen.

So yeah, I don't think not having a boyfriend is pathetic or whatsoever. I'm happy just the way I am now :)

Confidence.

2011-09-01T02:25:00.001+08:00

This is one thing that has been on my mind for quite some time but I haven't really had the chance to blurt it out.

It crossed my mind that confident girls are the prettiest. Confidence is the best accessory for a girl to wear.

Stop thinking about what other people will say about you. You can call me vain, but I'll use myself as an example.

I used to wear normal tudung, I really disliked wearing shawl. When I wore it for the first time with my friends, it was an epic fail. It's only because I was not confident at all that time.

Soon after that, I just don't care about what people say. I improvise my ways on wearing a shawl, I style it up the way I like it. And tadaa, it's a success.

They've stopped teasing my messed up shawl, and quite a number of people ask how do inwear them shawls.

It's not wrong to be confident and feel pretty at times. Tapi jangan nak lebih2 sangat la kan? -.-

*note that sometimes I wear shawls because I'm lazy to iron the tudung, not to be stylish :p

Eid Mubarak 2011

2011-09-01T02:16:00.001+08:00

Well, as I told you earlier, today was our family's official first raya day -.-

Went back to our hometown in Perak, and just got back.

Here are some pictures from my phone. Pictures from the camera aren't transferred yet. Later :)

That's me and my beautiful sisters.

And this is me trying on a new style of wearing a shawl :)

Last Minute Shopping.

2011-08-30T21:25:00.002+08:00

It was a hell of a tiring day yesterday, but it was kinda fun though.

We went out at around 11am to Jalan TAR. We thought there wouldn't be so many people since it's not yet a public holiday and we also thought that people have already gone to their hometown. Turned out that it was super crowded. Spend a few good hours around there buying tonnes of shawls.

At around 5, we went to Mid Valley to continue shopping. While waiting for the guys, we walked around trying to look for nice shoes but it was all in vain. None of them are worth buying. So finaly at around 630, the brothers arrived (it took them HOURS to get ready -.-).

We walked to iSetan at The Gardens. That's the funniest part of yesterday. We didn't know that the shop will be closed at 7pm! That's like SUPER early okay? While we were waiting for the guy to write something, we heard the announcement, the shop was ALREADY closed. But then my brother was still walking around. Sesuka hati taking more and more t-shirts -.-

The security guard was already there, all the workers already waiting for us to get the hell outta there -.- We finally finished paying for everything after the 10th announcement (kalau tak lebih la kan? -.-).

While we were walking out of the shop, all the workers semua beratur along the way. From the cashier place until the exit. So embarrassing -.- But they were sweet, they all smiled and wished us Hari Raya. I felt like a VIP. LOLOLOLL

So yeah, continue shopping at other shops until around 9pm. But still I haven't bought any shoes -.-

And, raya today sucks. I guess at my house the raya starts tomorrow -.-

National Service

2011-08-28T13:57:00.002+08:00

NAMA	:	MADIHAH BINTI ISMAIL
	NO. KAD PENGENALAN	:	930721******

	KUMPULAN	:	3
	PUSAT BERKUMPUL	:	JABATAN LATIHAN KHIDMAT NEGARA(BANGUNAN ZETRO) BERDEKATAN CAREFOUR WANGSA MAJU
	NEGERI PUSAT BERKUMPUL	:	WP KUALA LUMPUR

	NAMA KEM	:	KEM PLKN JUNACO PARK, SIBU, SARAWAK
	ALAMAT KEM	:	BATU 16
			JALAN OYA

	POSKOD KEM	:	96000
	BANDAR KEM	:	SIBU
	NEGERI KEM	:	SARAWAK

	TARIKH LAPOR	:	12-SEP-2011
	MASA LAPOR	:	9.00 PAGI

I know I've always wanted to skip this. I was DYING to find an excuse to postpone or just back off from this programme. But then I got the place I always said "If dapat tempat tu then I'll go."

It's the Junaco Park is Sarawak, same like my brother. He said that place was awesome. Now I feel like going, but too bad, I've something more important to deal with - studies.

I can't possibly skip 3 moths of college just to have fun there. So yeah, it's quite sad that I can't go, but it's okay too. Pasrah :)

Mid Semester A Level 1 1/2 Year Programme Exam.

2011-08-27T12:30:00.002+08:00

I was really freaked out before the exam started, but me being Madihah, I can hardly focus on studies for hours. While my housemates are busy studying, I was busy disturbing them, making weird noises and rolling on the floor laughing like a retard -.-

Alhamdulillah the papers are not so bad except for bloody Physics -.- I've never hated you Physics, you used to be the love of my life but now, now you broke my heart. I don't love you anymore -.- pfft.

But my results are not so bad though. So I can't really say I really hate Physics. Haha. Oh, we haven't get our results for Maths yet.

So far,it's

92 for Chemistry

76 for Biology

and bloody 63 for Physics -.-

I'm not sure if I passed the cut-off point cause I'm not certain if 63 is grade C or D. If it's C then I pass, if it's D means..... BRING IT ON PREP CLASSES! -.- haha. But I still have Maths to save me. Kena gi prep pun apa salahnya, boleh study kat library tu, takdelah tidur je kat bilik -.-

Hehe. Now I'm happily at home for the sem break@raya holidays. I'm gonna enjoy this one short week like a boss babehh! It's sad that Ramadhan, the holy month is gonna end soon, REALLY SOON, but Raya is Raya. It's the month of celebrating. Let's enjoy it!! Woohoo~ :)

Allahyarhamah Normah.

2011-08-24T00:24:00.002+08:00

5 years it has been since the moment where my world starts to collide. She was taken away from me, away from all of us. Oh how I wish I could turn back time. I wanna tell her I love her, I wanna hug her and kiss her cheeks, I wanna wake up listening to her voice.

Oh how I wish you were here :( I want you to see me now. By far, I'm as successful as a girl of my age can be. I got astonishing results and all the time I wish you were there to see me. I want you to be proud of me, to feel that all the hardships in raising me is worth it all.

Why'd you have to go too soon? Why can't you give it just a little more time. I wanna buy her her dream house, her dream car, I wanna give her everything that she wants. YOU took her away way too soon.

What could I possibly prove at the age of 13? The silly UPSR results was the only good achievement of mine that we share.

I hope you rest in peace. I hope Allah bless your soul. I know he'll take the best care of his best servants, and you're definitely one of them. I miss you ummi :(

Sangat :(

Lovely lovely day out :')

2011-08-21T13:50:00.002+08:00

I haven't seen these two of my retarded friends in AGES! We finally made a last minute plan to break fast together last Friday at KLCC. Wanted to eat at Chilli's like our last time, too bad it was full. So pasrah je berbuka at Little Penang Village.

The food was err...not bad but it was not filling at all. After Maghrib prayers, we continue eating at the food court. And that's where the craziness started.

Well, I've always said that I'll never wear anything similar to my friends whenever we go out. But last night was exceptional, and it turned out great. :)

And this, is the best candid portrait picture of myself ever taken. Thanks Erin :p haha

Birthday Part One (July 21)

2011-08-10T18:15:00.001+08:00

Well, I was too busy being sad about missing everyone that I forgot to update about this special day. I still do miss them all of course, but life must go on.

I don't really know how to say it was. It was a bit sad actually, the number of people who actually really remember my birthday are very very few.

But it was also a VERY sweet one :) let's start from the morning.

At midnight, Anith came to my house with her housemates to wish me, Farah played the guitar as they all sang the song for me :')

Okay. I go to classes looking like a makcik everyday. I wear the messy modern-style shawl - selebet, and I wear specs.

On my birthday [so-called the special day], I wore a proper tudung. Obviously I wore PINK! Haha. And also I wore contact lenses instead of glasses.

First thing in the morning; I heard Joshua asked someone "Who is that? Ha? Madihah? Really? Oh my God yeah that's Madihah!". Everyone said I look nice. *flattered sikit* HAHA. They didn't know it was my birthday (of course).

Later that day, someone asked me "Is it your birthday??" then Izzati overheard and she screamed to the class "Everyone! It's Madihah's birthday today!"

So yeah, they sang a birthday song for me. It was sweet of them. And then the lecturer came in, someone "Miss, today is a special day!" "Why?" "Its someone's birthday!" "Who?" "Guess guess! It's the birthday of the prettiest girl in the class!" "Urm....... That one! Madihah right?"

HAHAHA. Okay bukan nak perasan but I was so touched. Then they sang the birthday song again :)

Heeee :)

Birthday Part Two (The next day)

2011-08-10T18:10:00.001+08:00

At first everything was normal. I went to class wearing shawl and specs as usual, their respond "Today no more contacts ah?" haha. And starting from that day onwards, if ever I wear contacts to class, they'll ask "Wah Madihah, today birthday again ah?" -_- haha.

So what's so special about this day?

At first, the seniors (Kak Ummi, Kak Zue, Kak Elle) went out with their senior (Kak Rozek). Then everything was normal. It was still early in the afternoon, and they can't wait for Farah to come back.

When Farah came back, the seniors were excited. Then they took out a cake from the refrigerator and sang for me. They bought a cheesecake for me. The remember my favorite cake :')

Sumpah touched gila gila gila. I didn't expect that AT ALL. Plus we've only known each other for a couple of weeks. It was very sweet of them to do that. Thanks so much :')

Later at night, lepak at mamak with Farah and her classmates. Ramai gila, ada la nak dekat 3 meja. And then someone (I can't remember who) said that yesterday was my birthday. So they all sang the birthday song out loud, the other people there sang along.

Well, I could say that this is one of the sweetest birthday I've ever had. Though I didn't get even one birthday present, all the simple little things they did worth more than that.

Thanks everyone :)

I miss you guys ;(

2011-07-29T20:33:00.006+08:00

College life is okay. I can't really say it sucks. I love the environment, the accommodation is very good too. The house is spacious for only the 4 of us, lovely sweet seniors and a really nice friend as my housemates. A fridge and a washing machine in the house, so yeah, it is all awesome.

But I feel very lonely most of the time. I've no close friends besides my housemates. My classmates....hmm mcm tu je lah.

And I really really really really gila babi punya rindu all my high school friends. Especially Nadia, Bryan, Roshan and Atul.

I can never ever find anyone else like Nadia and Atul. Everytime in class I'd think "Bestnya kalau korg ada kat sini ;(" . I've no one to talk to about serious matters, I don't have singing partner in class, I don't laugh in class anymore like how I used to in high school ;(

I miss fighting with Bryan and Roshan. Rindu gaduh dengan Nadia pastu Bryan sibuk back-up Nadia. I miss hanging around at the back of the class, Bryan played guitar, and we all sing ramai2. Our lepaking place; the round table. When we were in the form 1 class in Block E, main jentik2 sampai tangan merah, menjerit2. :( I miss your racist jokes - Bryan Roshan Cheong Umesh :( I miss Myra who always had awesome comeback for whatever Roshan said. "RoBA-BIshan" HAHA.

I miss Wan and Iwan too. Semua kuat perasan. I miss Aqilah, I miss Yasameen, I miss Athirah, I miss Raihan. I miss Hana and Afiq too, dua2 kejam suka ejek aku.

Aaaaa I miss ALLL of youu :(

I want all my SAB-ian friends in KTT :(

No offense.

2011-06-26T17:15:00.001+08:00

When I wrote the title, this line came to mind "Why do people always say no offense right before offending someone?". I can't remember I heard that in what movie. Haha. Anyways, I'm gonna talk about online relationships.

I have a HUGE issue regarding this. I will not EVER get myself involved in any kind of a relationship, where I've never met the guy. I learnt that the hard way. It wasn't a pleasant experience, but I was glad it happened.

Well, let's start. Whenever someone tells me they're in a relationship, or liking someone, the first thing I usually ask is "Have you met this person?". If it's a no, I'll doubt every single thing.

One thing I know based on the experience I have, it's very easy to fall for someone through text messaging. They can be whoever they wanna be, they can make themselves sound like the most perfect guy ever. But how to know if what he's saying is really true? There's a quote saying "Real men are not perfect and perfect man are not real." it was undoubtedly true.

So ladies, please, don't let these 'perfect' online guys fool you. [It's still okay if he's really a guy, but who knows if he's not? Sounds impossible, sounds ridiculous and crazy, but it's not.] The 'guy' you're dating might just be a character created by someone else.

Just be careful. I'm talking based on experience here. And logically, HOW CAN YOU EVEN AGREE TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP/FALL SO IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE YOU HAVEN'T MET?!

Loving someone isn't about looking for the perfect guy, but looking at an imperfect guy perfectly instead. And the guy I'm currently liking, he has flaws and I've met him a few times, he's definitely real :) *terpesong sikit disitu.

The moral of the post is; Don't ever believe that person UNLESS you've seen him in real life, at least twice. Why didn't I say once? Cause for that once, 'the guy' might be paid to see you. It might sound too dramatic to be true, but it does happen.

Be careful ladies ;)

Second post for the day.

2011-06-25T11:06:00.001+08:00

See how much I miss it? Haha. Taklah, I already posted the first one when this thing crossed my mind. It's about India again.

Finally, I've come to really really accept it, be thankful for it. There's a quote saying "Allah doesnt always give you what you want, He gives what you need instead."

Everyone knows how I'm like. I like to have fun, I love trying new things and I'm not really religious. I wear tudung, I pray, it's true that those things I do stop me from doing a few things. But I doubt my iman is strong enough.

Maybe if I were to study in Ireland, I get too carried away with parties, too much fun, influenced with their 'budaya barat' - if you get what I mean. Especially without any supervision.

Social life in India is definitely not as bad as it is in Ireland. So yeah, I think it is for the best. Regardless my A-levels results [of course it has got to be above the cut-off point though] I'll stick to India.

;)

Hello readers! (dont know if I have any).

2011-06-25T10:52:00.001+08:00

I haven't wrote anything here for AGES! Tiba2 terasa rindu. I think I'll blog more after this to update you guys about my college life.

So, I'll start college the day after tomorrow and I'm freaking out. I've never stayed in a hostel before. I know I know, people say "Sepang je weh. Lek ar!". But let it be Sepang, or Kedah, or Kelantan, or even India, a hostel is still a hostel.

I hope everything will be fine. At least I know a few people there. Sigh. I can't believe I'm all grown up. I'll be fucking 18 in less than a month. Yes people, its hard for me to accept it. When people ask about my age, I still say 17. I still am okay? I'll only say I'm 18 after July 21.

Omg Madihah, GROW UP!! You're entering a COLLEGE, yet you can't even accept the fact that you're 18! Okay let's get back to the topic before I start nagging to myself.

Sorry if this post is a long, draggy one. I just miss writing! I hope there's a wifi connection at the hostel or else I wouldn't be able to blog all the time. I should go to Maxis to take up a data plan for my iPhone, tapi sumpah malas -.-

Hmm so what do I update about my life?

Love life is good. I'm not in a relationship, I'm single but I'm not too sure if I'm available. My heart is definitely taken and I'm happy :)

Family? Okay2 je. We fight from time to time, but that's just normal when you're the laziest ass in the house.

Study? There's nothing to update yet. You'll get a LOOONG comment on that soon enough. Haha.

I'm happy now though I miss her and him so so terribly. Can't wait to see him again. As for her, I can only pray to see her in my dreams. I love and miss both of them so much :')

Lovely days lined up for me :)

2011-05-28T01:12:00.003+08:00

Went out for 3 days in a row this week, and maybe 4 if the plan is on for tomorrow. Spending precious times with my lovely friends is definitely heavenly!

Day One

As always, when it comes to Atul and I, the plans are always always made at the very last minute. Haha. And so I was sleepily lying on bed when I get a call from her asking if I wanna help her out with shopping. We met up at KLCC, shopped for a few hours, spend a few pennies, and we went back to her house. I was kind enough to help her with packing, she sure loves me like hell now regarding that :P HAHA. Also, Raihan called if we were free to bake cupcakes on the next morning at Puteri's house.

Day Two

Slept at 330am the night before, and gotta wake up at 10am the next morning. HOLY FUCK, sleepy gila babi -.- So we woke up, bathed, had breakfast, then we walked to Puteri's house. Halfway, terserempak dgn Raihan's mom, so she sent us there :D Haha.

We had SOOO much fun baking. Yasameen and Izham was there too. At around 130, Aqilah arrived, then Atul and I went to AmpWalk with her, teman her do physiotherapy. That place was awesome, jakun sikit. Haha. Then we had our late-lunch at nearly 430pm. After eating, go back to Puteri's house to continue helping them with everything.

Went back home at around 7pm, Yazzy's mom tumpangkan sampai Ampang LRT station :)

Day Three

It's TEACHER'S DAY CELEBRATION today! Went to school to give the cupcakes to teachers :) Atul, Raihan, Yazzy, Puteri, Najat, Izham and Adlene was there. It was FUN FUN FUN! We miss all the teachers! :)

Next, we went to Great Eastern Mall to have lunch. Planned to have it at Cozy House but it was full, so we ate at Penang Village. The food was nice but the service sucks gila babi. Seriously. I said it out loud in front of the rude waiter "Tkpayah nak bagi tips, service dia TERUK GILA." HAHA. Mean I know, but duhh.

Balik at around 530pm, today mak Izham pulak tumpangkan sampai Ampang LRT station :)

Day Four

Hopefully there'll be a post up for this part tomorrow :)

Awesome mosum day......with a little bit of lime.

2011-05-17T14:21:00.006+08:00

It started out GREAT, it went on AWESOMEly, it gets even BETTER, but then something happened and my heart was crashed, but later, it gets all AWESOME MOSUM again ;)

Okay lets start with the first thing in the morning. The night before Iwan already told me that he's coming aroun 9 - 10. However, yesterday I reached school at EIGHT! -.- So I called Iwan, he said he's lepaking at a train station cause he don't wanna come to school so early. So I used my skill to pujuk him, so yeah he reached school minutes after that :P

So.......we spent hours at school, alone -.- haha. Jumpa la cikgu2 semua, Puan Anis is the best. Haha. I missed talking to her. Then, the funniest is bila jumpa my Physics teacher and my juniors, they all thought Iwan and I are together -.- NOOO! Dia kat sebelah dah perasan2 dah :P Haha.

Then the others sampai. Hana, Wan Afiq, Afiq Danial ngan Hakim. The teachers were all busy. So ktorg lepak2 je la borak2 until around 12 mcm tu, then Arif Fikri datang, that sums up to 7 people. We were all so hungry but there was nothing at the school canteen pfftt -.-

So we bergerak to Times Square, had Kenny Rogers, did Archery and played Bowling. It was plain GREAT! Bowling is the funniest. We all suck! Afiq won with his points less than 90! HAHAHA! Pictures are with Hana and Afiq. I didn't bring my camera cause now biasanya tgkp gmba with phone, but since they all use DSLRs, wa nak kuarkan phone pon segan weh -.- hahaha.

Lepas bowling, we dismissed. Iwan was still at TS when we left cause he had to wait for his mom. I felt bad leaving him alone since he teman me earlier in school, but I already made a new plan to see Haris in KLCC after bowling. So I walked to the train station with Wan and Afiq. *I love walking with guys cause they always make my safety their first priority*. Haha gedikk kata :P

So yeah, took train to KLCC. Lepak makan ice cream dgn Haris, talked about the upcoming college/university life. It scared both of us to death. Can't stop trying to predict whats gonna happen in the future. He'll be in Shah Alam, I'll be on Sepang.....others, just dispersed all across Malaysia. Then, when we planned to go back, it rained heavily. So lepak2 jap jalan2, bought some stuffs at Cold Storage -_______- ktorg balik. Haris sent me home. The traffic was rather bad we were both so sleepy in the car -.- Haha.

Back at home, I gotta start preparing for the futsal later. Then I got a text from Iwan, that when the lime starts to spill its juice........

At first it was alright, he said "Weh kau start June kan? Aku July. Boleh kita lepak lg lepas ni :D"

I was like NO SHIT! DONT TELL ME?!! So yeah, Alhamdulillah, my great guy friend there got the MARA scholarship to study in his dream country, Germany. Lucky ass, I'm so happy for you ;D But then..... when he said this one other girl also got the scholarship to study in MY dream country, it felt like my heart was stabbed. I never lose. I never lose. I never lose.

Thats so selfish, so bad, so cruel of me, but I can't help feeling all envious and jealous and...crashed. Hmph. Ntah la. But everyone said its VERY hard to get JPA scholarship compared to MARA. And India is a dream country for SOO many people as its dentistry course is VERY good over there. I just gotta learn to be thankful. Tak reti nk bersyukur aku nih.

After that, everything gets much better after futsal. It was fun playing sports with my family, Imran and Zeze. Balik tu penat tahap gaban, mandi , tidur.

It was a LOOOOONG day, but a good one ;)

India....again.

2011-05-14T12:33:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah, I thank God that he makes everything so easy for me - educationwise. Its a "Tahniah!" for everything I checked. I got the offers to study in Kolej Matrikulasi Negeri Sembilan, Universiti Malaya and also I passed the interview to get a scholarship under the Program Ijazah Luar Negara 2011 by JPA.

And for all of the offers, I get the course I want. Sains Hayat, and for JPA dentistry. It's frustrating when I didn't get the country I want. I've always wanted Ireland but it turned out that I get India. However, many people say it's okay to study there.

They are not gonna send me to places like I went to. It's a well-off place. Where people speak English and the environment is not bad. I don't know. I'll just take the offer for the moment. I've 18 months to think it through, whether I wanna go to India or pick another country.

However, I still have to pass with flying colors in my A level in order for me to do so. So for now, my next destination is Kolej Teknologi Timur in Sepang. I'll be doing my preparation [A level] there for 18 months.

My college life will start somewhere in June.

I feel blessed. Thank you Allah :)

HELLO HELLO!

2011-05-05T12:08:00.002+08:00

Went to India for 6 days. I've missed the internet. Soooo fucking hard to get WiFi connection there that I gave up on looking for one, and just bear being disconnected to the world.

So yeah, India was ...... okay? I can't wait to go back, so it was not really a good sign. Haha. The places are extremely super fucking gila babi punya dirty, I can hardly breathe all the time I was there, if I lived there, memang sanggup pakai purdah to cover my face from all the dirts.

Also, it was scorching motherfucking HOT! Umbrellas couldn't be seen anywhere AT ALL. Memang burnt habis. Plus, its so hard to get iced drinks. Cold...yeah, but ice...no -.-

Plus, something happened along the way that made all of us a bit unhappy, but its nothing much. So we tried to ignore whatever thats bothering us and just enjoy the short trip.

Orang2 sana SANGAT rude. They have no manners at all. It's like....they're still uncivilized. People pee in the public, walking around without any footwear, sleeping all along the sidewalk, it was an eyesore. Except the people in our hotel, they are super extremely nice and also the guys at Olympia - the only restaurant we dared to eat at = confirm halal and.....relatively clean.

The only thing I love there is that the stuffs are very cheap. Dekat Olympia tu, we ate like 4 full Chicken Briyani with full Tandoori chicken and a few Chapatis, teka berapa je bill ktorg? Approximately RM55 for SEVEN people! I gained weight -.- Hahaha.

So thats all about India I think, malas nk cerita detail2 lain. Haha. Also, a VERY unexpected thing happened the day before I went to India. I still can't find the word to describe my feelings for that, but happy is definitely one of it xD

Panas Hati..?

2011-04-26T20:57:00.001+08:00

For God knows why, I tend to get mad very easily lately. I feel like I hate everyone. Most of the time I feel extremely lonely, like I hardly have friends. Also, I feel very far from Allah. I always feel bad cause I always feel lazy to pray.

This is the part that I hate the most after having periods. When I'm used to not praying for around a week, even when I'm clean again, I get very super lazy to pray. That's the compulsory ones, let's not get to the Sunat prayers.

I somehow regret resigning. Working is my only distraction from my miserable life. But nah, it's too late, I already resigned and also, I wasn't very happy for the last week I was there since he had quit even earlier.

Hmph ntah lah. Is it so hard to be happy?

Always be there.

2011-04-16T13:09:00.003+08:00

The title has nothing to do with the post. It's just a random line from a song that I'm currently listening to.

Good news to share, I was qualified to go for the JPA PILN interview. If you're wondering what is that, it's an interview to get a scholarship to study overseas, and obviously the course I've chosen is dentistry. Results will come out on the 29th April, hopefully I can get it. InshaaAllah, Amin amin ya rabbal alamin.

Also, I get the 3rd intake for NS. I am happy for that, some people even cursed to be taken for the 3rd intake, so why am I so happy? Cause most probably, I already get my offer to study somewhere by July, so I can postpone. They say "Postpone je, later kena pergi gak." Well, that is about "later", I'm worrying about "Now" :)

Third, I have finally bought the phone I've always wanted, iPhone 4 :) His name is Bubu :D

But I also have bad news though. I no longer enjoy workig like how I used to. After Wai Xing has quit, then Chee Hwa, and now it's Syafiq. Thank God Albert is till there, or else I might as well just quit without any prior notice. I can't stand working under such stress anymore, so my last day would be on the 20th April, it's official now since I've passed the resignation letter.

Another thing is, I seem to be feelingless towards everything nowadays. Maybe I'm scared to feel anything anymore? I'm not happy even after buying the phone, I'm not sad to know the guy I like likes someone else, I'm not ecstatic when one of my crush text me, I just .... can't feel it.

Well, this is life.

Unpredictable, unreasonable.

Hmph.

A thousand years.

2011-04-06T23:06:00.002+08:00

That's how long I've been neglected this blog. Well, it feels like it. I don't know why I feel down lately. I read someone's blog, about him spilling what he feels, and I realize I haven't done that for a very long time.

My posts on Tumblr, it's always about guys I've a crush on, not really a crush, more like .... I don't know how to explain, but it's just not about ME.

Life has been treating me like shit lately, the only distraction is my job. It's tiring and I always end up sleeping straight away after I had my shower. But at times like this, when I'm alone and I got no one to talk to and I just can't sleep, all the bad things that happen to me will hit my brain.

I'll become emotional [like now]. It's silly, no? I can always choose to think about stuffs that make me happy, but I choose the opposite instead. It feels like there's nothing good happening to me lately, the results? Heh. Not that I'm not thankful to get such an astounding result, it's just that, ntah lah, lets not get to that one.

My life seems to get worse one day after another. I feel unloved and unappreciated by my own family, I feel like my close friends drifting away, I feel lonely and miserably at all times. The hole in my heart seems to grow bigger and bigger as time passes by. It's killing me.

I wanna get away from here. I wanna start a new life. I just.....I just wanna be happy.

SPM RESULTS :)

2011-03-23T23:51:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah.

All praises to Allah.

Thank You Allah.

Alhamdulillah :)

I didn't get what I always wanted, I didn't get straight A+s. However, I'm super very extremely thankful enough to get 6A+s and 3As.

The As are Biology, Agama and History. Others are all A+ and also I got A1 for my 1119 English :)

Again, Alhamdulillah :)

Sweet customer! :)

2011-03-16T20:31:00.003+08:00

Staffs for morning shift today are Albert and I, and the Shift Officer on duty is Zane = Outlet Manager.

Unlike any other days, there were quite a number of customers though it was only 10am. But hey, it was still morning, everyone was still cheery and energetic. The service was very fast as well since there weren't so many orders on queue.

Usually, customers ask for the waiter/waitress to give them the check, but just now the customer at Table 35 wanted to pay at the counter. So macam.....okay je lah. He went to counter and Zane was there.

When I came in to return a tray, I saw that guy writing something on the Customer's Comment form. I was like.......feelingless -.- Haha.

Then Zane called me, "Eh Albert already told you or not?" "Errr no...why?" "You ah, and Albert, are the reason why the customer just now wrote." "WHY :O"

Then then then "Haha no lah, he puji the service!" "Really? What did he say what did he say??? :D"

Something like this.....

Customer "The food here is very nice!"

Zane "Oh really? Thanks :)"

Customer "The girl and that guy is so sweet too!"

Zane "Haha. Then why don't you write at the Customer's Comment form?"

Customer *writing*

Zane "Let me help you with the names, it's Madihah and Albert"

HAHAHAHA GILA BAHAGIA :D

Zane said to me "Apa you buat kat dia ha???"

Me "I bagi senyuman ikhlas yang paling comel dekat dia! HAHAHAHAHA"

Kerja dengan lelaki senang ke susah?

2011-03-06T21:40:00.002+08:00

That's the question I saw at Facebook, on someone's status. Makes me feel like blogging about it. Haven't posted anything for too long, don't feel like it. Busy with work jugak pun, though it's fucking tiring but enjoying it now :)

Okay, I always work with guys and most of the time, I'm the only girl in the group, ever since primary school. Like now, I'm not really the only girl working at that Old Town, but most of the time, yes. The other girls RARELY come. They work sambil belajar, so yeah, they only come when they're free.

Based on the experience that I have, my answer for that question is definitely senang. Kenapa?

1. Though when you're the only girl in a gang you memang akan jadi tumpuan diorang untuk dibahan, tapi sebenarnya dalam diam they actually love you. If you're nice to them, they can be the nicest of friends you can have. Trust me. Try rapat jadi kawan dengan diorang. If any guys berani break your heart/hurt you in any ways, they're gonna kill them.

2. You'll always always always get special treatment HAHAHA. This one is really true. Like now, sometimes when they know I'm tired, they won't let me do the hard stuffs, just do something light and simple like being a cashier or just take orders. No such thing as sending food and clean up stuffs. ;D But one warning, don't get the wrong hint about their kindness, they're just being nice. They might flirt sometimes, but trust me, it's not for real, usually they just joke around. So bila kerja dengan guys ni, jangan percaya bulat2/ambil hati sangat apa diorang cakap. Then memang akan sangat senang.

3. They're not emotional. Tak senang nak marah2 ke apa. Kalau tegur pun, usually diorang tegur baik2, sebab tahu perempuan ni sensitif [usually ni awal2 la, kalau dah kawan, mmg kena belasah la en -.-] haha. And also, gedik2 sikit ngang dorg, kalau buat salah pun inshaaAllah diorang akan maafkan. Kena ikhlas la, jangan nk menggedik tak tentu hala -.-

Those are the 3 MAIN reasons why I like working with guys. Other than that, I'm just more comfortable around them than girls. Girls banyak kerenah, even I do. I bet if I work with any other girls, they won't stand me, with guys it's just much easier.

So yeah, as for me, working with guys is senang :)

2011-02-16T21:45:00.003+08:00

OLD TOWN WHITE COFFEE

That where I'm working now. Started last Saturday, finally a day off tomorrow :D

Its a very easy job, just that is super tiring. My legs hurt from standing for too long. I have nice supervisor, Syafiq Nizam and lovely team mates [namely Albert Yusup - my favourite! haha :D].

The past few days was fun. I've two favourite customers. A lady who always goes there to read, and she's super nice, she gave me an RM10 tips :D and also a guy who always goes there to think. I always see him scribbling on a paper, or with him laptop, thinking. He's also super nice :D

However today sucks like hell. The first order I took of the day was wrong. I put orange juice instead of orange fizzy. After that I spilled a cold white coffee. A few times I nearly fell. Sigh. Today was just a bad day for me.

But also, one thing I love about working there is that I can stalk Abang Nando's xD OMG HES SO CUTEEE HAHAHAHAHA xD

Okay thats all for now! :D

2011-02-11T14:39:00.002+08:00

PETROSAINS :D

It was my first time entering Petrosains last Wednesday. I know I know it's so sad, dah nak 18 baru nak masuk -.- Haha but it was FUNNNNN :D

Lompat-lompat, baling-baling, panjat-panjat, tangkap-tangkap gambar ! Haha seronok xD

Jumpa ramai SABians, they volunteer-working there.

I went there with Atul.

Lunch time, there were 6 of us. There's a girl whose name I can't remember, Izham, Atul, Zain and Aqilah.

And then once they went back to work, Atul, Aqilah and I walked to Pavilion. Lepak at TCB, camwhore bapak best gila la kan xD HAHAHAHA atul gambarrrrrr manaaaa? -.-

And then we walked back to KLCC and continued to lepak with Zain at the food court :D

Then balik rumah around 7 something.

It was a super awesome day :D :D

2011-02-05T19:37:00.004+08:00

5 WEEKS IS JUST NOT ENOUGH :(

It's time for me to go back to Malaysia tomorrow. Our flight to Kuala Lumpur will be at 330pm, will reach there around 9pm. I feel so......sad :( I wish I can stay here longer. Hopefully I can get a scholarship to study dentistry in Australia, even if it's not in Adelaide. That way, we can still kunjung mungunjung whenever we've school break :D

But still, the feeling that I MIGHT not be coming back here ever, its just very heartbreaking :(

Here are some pictures of us, after went out for our last dinner together here in Adelaide. Walking around the Rundle Street.

And having to take off my keychain from the house keys, omg so sad :( :( :(

Biggest thanks Aiza and her parents [Aunt Zurwati Haslinda and Uncle Johari] !

Also Almaz and Tikah!

2011-02-04T19:27:00.000+08:00

PS3 and Wii madness xD

Aiza and I have been enjoying ourselves by playing Guitar Hero on PS3 and also Just Dance on Wii. Guess what? WE'RE AWESOMEEEEE :3 HAHAHA

Guitar Hero

Just Dance

Sorry that no picture of us crazily playing them can be posted, even if we weren't tudung girls, there should NEVER be any pictures of us playing! Jatuh saham -.- HAHAAHHA

2011-02-03T20:59:00.004+08:00

GLENELG BEACH [3rd Edition]

Why 3rd Edition? Coz it's the 3rd time I went there. Haha.

2011-02-02T19:45:00.001+08:00

HANEMM IS BAACKK :D

She's a survivor babeh! Haha. Can't puji lebih later she read she perasan! XD
CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HER AND HEAR HER STORIES! :D

2011-02-02T14:55:00.003+08:00

TIKAH's HOUSE! :) *edited*

It was a last minute plan [as usual], so we went out at 10pm and sampai Tikah's house around 1030pm macam tu kot? Almaz and Aiza was busy studying for their upcoming exams. Then, once they finished studying, Aiza and I couldn't sleep. We talked until like.....330am?

Too bad I still couldn't sleep until the next morning, and my back sakit macam gila nak mati -.- Pasrah. Haha. Then we went to Tea Tree Plaza to have brunch. Then Aiza and Almaz went home to study, Tikah and I continued walking around.

Then pergi rumah Tikah balik and then pergi city. There was this one surfing shop having sale, things are like superr cheap! xD Then we walked to Central Market and after that, we finally walked home :D

I'm super worn out, walking under the burning hot sun, but it was fun! :D

This was what happened while waiting for Tikah to pick us up at the station....

Heh heh heh :3 :3

And this is Tikah's awesome house + her cooooool TV!

And last but not least, this is just......me being vain :D

:D

2011-01-31T12:11:00.001+08:00

FINAL WEEK :(

2011-01-28T18:32:00.001+08:00

4 weeks had just flown.

Only a week left :(

2011-01-27T12:03:00.002+08:00

UniSA

I is at the UniSA library with Aiza :D She's TRYING to study :P
Haha. I'm bored and sleepy. It's very quiet in here! [Duhh it's a library, what do you expect Madihah? -.-].

Let me think of something to write. Hurmm...

Oh okay. I wore the heels that I bought for Kakak, saja nak try okay ke tak [don't be mad okay :D]. I walked to the just-closed-booth of Santos Tour Down Under. I was supposed to buy a merchandise from there for Shukran [Kakak's Bf] but too bad, the booth was already closed and then Tikah and I went to the place where tourists go to get information, and the lady said everything was sold out -.-' Sorry Shukran -.-'

Then I walked home, to take my phone. Then I walked to.....here :D Then dah tak larat so I changed back to my flip flops -.- Haha. So the shoes are not bad, quite okay :D

Oh god, I'm bored T_T

2011-01-22T18:42:00.004+08:00

MOONLIGHT CINEMA :)

We watched Megamind last night under the stars and the moon. It was super super super fucking cold that all of us wished we had brought selimut. We brought food, picnic :D Sandwich, fried rice and also sticky date pudding for dessert. We thought that thats too much, sekali orang lain dengan bean bag and kerusi and wine and selimut and all -.- It was our first time, tiada pengalaman. Haha.

Going home time, it was quite scary. The movie started a bit late, so it ended quite late jugak lah kan? Around 1130pm. We were all still traumatized by what happened many days ago. Semalam pun there were these few guys screamed at us when we passed. Lifeless bastards -.-

Oh, and I learned to play a new game! "Head or Tail". Haha. Malas nak explain game tu macam mana, cari sendiri xD Pictures nanti dulu, belum transfer :)

Later~

2011-01-19T20:24:00.008+08:00

BEERENBERG FARM :D

Today we woke up a bit earlier to go for strawberry picking! :D

and THIS, is Za's favourite Strawberry. Haha.

Then we walked to Hahndorf Town, the oldest German village in Australia.

Tadaaa~ :)

2011-01-16T09:35:00.003+08:00

SUPER SATURDAY :D

We went to this one restaurant [can't remember it's name -.-] in North Adelaide to try the CHOCOLATE PIZZA :D Kinder's surprise and Mars Bar. Heh heh heh :3 Sedap gak la, but agak muakss.

After that we went to the beaaach :D Lying down on the green grass in the shades when it was very breezy was just....awesome. Very peaceful :)

Then we walked to the beach beach! Haha. Had a stroll di pinggiran pantai HAHAHA WTF. Aiza and I collected beautiful sea shells while waiting for the sunset.

After that we had dinner at this one restaurant near the beach, Chilli Shrimp was naiizzzz :3

Sampai rumah nearly ..... 11 eh? Or 1030 I'm not sure. Watched Whispering Corridors 5 before going to sleep -.- Scary shiz -.- Haha.

No pictures for today since the hard disc buat hal, can't unlock -_____________-
Toodles! :D

**EDITED**

PICTURESS BABEH :D

Kinder's Surprise! :D

Mars Bars! :D :D

The Park :)

Berguling-guling best gilaaa ~.~ haha

Apa lagi? Camwhore :D

~Sunset~
Glenelg Beach :)

A few more pictures were supposed to be uploaded, but it asyik error je so I dah malas. That should be enough! Taaaa~ :D

2011-01-14T19:02:00.006+08:00

ADELAIDE ZOOOOOOOO :D :D

I SAW KANGAROOS AND CUTE KOALA :D :D AND ALSO GIANT PANDA HEEEEE~ :D :D
Let the pictures do the talking babeh ;D

ADELAIDE ZOO :D

KANGAROO!

KOALA :D :D

PANDA! :D

ZOOOOM : SELAMAT DATANG! HAHA :D

Okay, lepas balik zoo, kat sini pulak...

Tempat meng-camwhore :D

We love the green grass :D

Almaz in the club!

Heeee :)

Gambar lompat tak jadi -.- Haha.

Muka innocent gila tak? xD

Short story.......

There were two close friends, Madihah and Aiza.

Then a guy came and they both fell for him (Almaz is the 'him' HAHA).

And so the friendship terhapus T_T

And then they realised how stupid it was, they were like "DUHH, gaduh sebab Almaz?" HAHAHAHA

And so they are friends again :D

.THE END.

2011-01-13T19:43:00.002+08:00

HELLOW YELLOW~

Nothing much happens lately, so I was lazy to update.
I just came back from dinner at ..... wait, I forgot the name of that place already -.-
Okay whatever, I had seafood spaghetti, it was nice.

On the way back home, there was this one super scary dude walking with us. At first he stared at Almaz, then he stared at Aiza. SUPER SCARYYY WEHH. Tikah suruh tukar jalan, sekali he tukar also. It was still okay as long as he walked in front of us. and THANK GOD he didn't stop or anything. Guess what? HE PUKED SESUKA HATI LIKE OMG BUSUK GILA !

Then he stopped, but thank God dah lepas simpang yang kitorang kena masuk. So yeah, WE'RE STILL ALIVE! Haha. Omg sumpah scary gila -.-

2011-01-11T13:08:00.005+08:00

A LONG WALK

Aiza and Almaz have classes today. So I decided to walk around on my own. It's not so sunny today and very windy, I love that kind of weather. So I walk and walk and walk, the initial plan was to just patah balik the path yang I dah jalan, but then I decided to try a different path to walk back home. Kerja gila.

And and and.....I found a bookstore which sells book at $2 each. How can I resist the temptation T__________T
So I bought 3 new novels today -.-
But hey, it's so cheap okay? 3 novels for $6, you'll never get a book at that price in Malaysia!

Then I singgah Subway, Seafood Sensation as always -.- AND THE GUY WAS SOOOO CUTEEE :D Hahaha.

Finally I got home, thank God tak sesat :D

Candy Shop! :D

2011-01-09T12:23:00.006+08:00

SUNDAY MARKET

Bangun, mandi and walked to the Sunday market. FUCKING HOT WALAWEHHH -.- Nothing much there, stuffs are quite pricey and I'm all broke -.-

I tried macaroons, twisted potato and also some pancakes. They are all yummy :3 So that's all, then we walked back home.

Justin Timberlake - Cry Me A River as a background music while I'm writing this. Haha.

Macaroons!

Twisted Potato!

Almas, I, Tikah :)

Pancakes :D

Almaz, I, Aiza :D

Here are some pictures when I went to the beach a few days ago :)

Me being vain xD

Lovely beach :)

I and Raja Syaza :)

The water was OH MY GOD clear gilaaa :)

Changing, in Cotton On's fitting room!

Heeee :)

Mengeringkan diri, note that we forgot to buy towels -.-

Glenerg :)

In the tram ;D

Back in Rundle Street

Toodles! ;)

2011-01-08T18:35:00.003+08:00

HARBOUR TOWN

Shopping lagi! I'm broke now T_T I really need to berjimat-cermat, I can't simply buy whatever I feel like buying, mati aku -.- Dah la baru tak sampai a week kat sini, I still have another FOUR MORE WEEEEKSSSS! -.-

But nevermind, but first regret later :D HAHA

2 pairs of skinny jeans
2 pairs of shoes
4 t-shirts
One necklace
One bracelet
One bag
One cute notebook
One more seluar tidur :3 HAHA

Okay, that sums up to THIRTEEN items -.-

But nevermind [sedapkan hati], shopping makes me happy. I hate it when I go shopping without my sisters, I'll just buy everything without thinking -.- But thank God so far I love everything I bought kerana membeli dengan mood bahagia :D HAHAHA

No more spending after this! Sambung shopping a few days before I blah. [I hope I can resist the temptation to buy the $5 stuffs though, that SOOOO HARDDDD T________T]

Haha okay, thats all for today, see ya! :D

*no pictures, too busy shopping -.-

2011-01-07T17:02:00.005+08:00

BEEEAACHHHHHH! :D :D

It was an awesome-mosum day! Initial plan? Just lepak at the coffee house. Sekali while we were about to enter that place...

Raja : You wanna try using the tram? Pergi beach?
I : Boleh gak, you know how?
Raja : Not really but my cousin said just take the tram, and go the last station. It's free, I think.
I : Sure! *was about to enter as I thought she wants to buy a drink first, then pusing balik* Wait, we go now? You wanna buy drinks first?
Raja : No it's okay, we go now! :D

So we took the tram to Glenerg. It was scorching hot! But the very breezy, so okay lah. Then we planned to just jalan-jalan, rendam-rendam kaki since we didn't bring any spare clothes to mandi. Sekali rasa macam.....

I : Best gila kalau boleh mandi!! Nak tak?
Raja : Tu la! Kalau tahu I bawa spare baju.
I : Lets find one, the cheapest one :D
Raja : Seriously?
I : You nak tak?
Raja : Okay, COTTON ON!
I : JOM! HAHA!

Soooooo, we bought the cheapest t-shirt at Cotton On for $5 and leggings for $15, tukar baju in the FITTING ROOOM! HAHAHAHAH then we ran to the beach! :D

Well, it doesn't end there okay? Masa nak balik tu, we were like...

I : I can't see any washrooms, mana kita nak tukar??
Raja : I know this one restaurant ada toilet inside...tapi...?
I : Try masuk?
Raja : Ramai la pulak orang. Nevermind, jom!

So yeah, we randomly masuk this one full restaurant and change -.- HAHAHA awesome gila.
Then we took the tram to go back to Rundle Mall, had late-lunch at Nando's, it's HALAL! HAHA :D Then balik and tidur :) We might be having Step Up Marathon tonight since they were so shocked I've never watched them -.- hahaha

Laterr~ :)

2011-01-06T17:08:00.003+08:00

DAY 3

I WOKE UP AT 145PM!!!!!! OMG WTF -.- HAHA
Almaz and Aiza already went to their respective classes by then -.-
So I woke up, bathed, had leftover for brunch, ironed and went shopping :D
I bought a lot of stuffs, omg I tell you, I feel so...membazir -.-
But nevermind, I feel SO SUPER HAPPY :D ~retail therapy~ hahaha

One shirt
One cute boxers
Eye mask
5 t-shirts
A pair of shoes
3 new books
Some souvenir stuffs.

Had Subway again for early-dinner, HAHAHA. Seafood -.- but it's quite nice tho :)
Now I'm at the University of South Australia! Accompanying Za doing her stuffs.
Heee~

Oh anyways, on Tuesday I bought...

One t-shirt
A box of CUTEEE plasters!
A keychain :D
2 novels -.-

Hanging out with Raja Syaza tomorrow before she go back to Malaysia :)

2011-01-05T22:31:00.002+08:00

A REQUEST

And so I get a request from Erin to update everything I do, every single day, for 5 weeks. I'll try. HAHA. So lets talk about what happened yesterday, and today maybe.

We arrived at around 8am, bathed and unpacked. Went out at around 11 to have lunch at the Rundell's Central Plaza. I had tuna sandwich at Subway. Then we walked around the Rundell Street with Aiza and her friend, Almaz until 1. Then they had to go to class and I walked alone until 3 something. I went home and slept like a log. I didn't realize they were home. I woke up at 8 kot, dengar bising2 -.- hahaha

At night, we had dinner at Piatto [if I'm not mistaken] a halal restaurant. I had chicken something, the meal was huge, so I bawak balik half. Had it for brunch today. HAHA jimat jimat.
Today, we literally did NOTHING at all. Woke up super late, at around 130pm, the we had brunch, then we talked and talked, then dinner time, we ordered Thai food, then we watched 'The Last Song' and also 'Tarzan'. HAHAHA

and now I'm here, blogging and facebooking with him :) and a few other friends of course :D !

2011-01-04T17:47:00.003+08:00

WHADDUP!

Hello people! Sorry for the long lost, so many things have been going on lately. Unplanned, I went to prom and it was bloody hell awesome. Unexpected, I'm now very close with my "NEW" friend, Zain, my texting and lepaking buddy :). Unbelievable, I am now in Adelaide, the moment I've been waiting for since the past many months.

I was not excited AT ALL about the New Year of 2011. It seems like nothing to me. I do not even have one New Year's Resolution. This is kinda abnormal as usually I'd have a long long loooooong list of resolutions by the 25th Dec of the previous year [thats how excited I was for the previous years]. But well, currently, I don't really have a goal in my life. That will be it until I get my results, which I heard will come out at around 23rd March. About the results, there's nothing more I can do other than keep praying and praying and praying. 9A+ amin :)

I'll try to update as always as before, it's only my first day in here, I've so many things yet to be explored. I guess I'll be bored after 3 weeks, then I'll have my blog updated all the time! Haha.

See you when I see you. Loves X

2010-12-24T19:49:00.002+08:00

KHAMIS

Went out early in the morning, went to WangsaWalk to lepak and watch movie.

Then went for driving class for 2 miserable hours.
Lepak at the playground for a while, waiting for Atul who never turned up, so I masuk je rumah dia tanpa segan silu. HAHA

So went to Atul's house, sleeping over :D

JUMAAT

Went for the JPJ test, I PASSED! ALHAMDULILLAH! HAHAHAHAHA :D :D :D

Then waited for Zain at the McDonald's in Setiwangsa while he was performing the Friday's Prayers. Then we walked to Setiawangsa station, waiting for Reezal.

Then we went rock-climbing at Wangsa Maju.

Had lots of fun xD

2010-12-23T00:15:00.001+08:00

PROM PROM PROM!

It was AWESOME :D

There was a quiet crowd at the back of the ballroom which made the prom awkward, but duh, WHO CARES?

HAHA we really really had fun!

Pictures? Next time lah. Haha.

Thanks a bunch Aqilah and Atul :D

LOVE YOU MUAH MUAH! HAHAHA

2010-12-18T20:42:00.002+08:00

TIMES SQUARE !

Went out with Nadia. Believe it or not, time flew so fast that it has been more than a week we haven't seen each other!

Lepak and had brunch at Papa John's Pizza and then watch My Soul to Take, biasa je, not so scary. Then we just bought some drinks and lepak at the food court. It was super crowded in TS today, homaigod, I'll never go there ever again on weekends! -.-

**p/s : I NEED TO GO SHOPPING TO BUY SHOES LAAAAAA T_T

2010-12-18T20:23:00.003+08:00

KONTEST BLOG TERKEMAS

I was tagged by Erin, since cuti cuti ni takde kerja, I pun layan je la kan? Haha :)

So here are the rules :

Follow blog hana and Fyza . tak follow pun takpe but make sure korang salu update dengan blog kitorang ok :D
make sure korang ada blog tau! no blog . no contest, no present ! hahah .
buat satu entry dengan tajuk Kontest Blog Terkemas . amek banner tu sekali and make sure link kan terus ke blog hana atau link entry kontest ni .
bila dah buat, bagi link entry korang dekat ruangan komen hana ok . submit link entry dekat blog hana je tau . senang sikit . kang tercicir habis kena pelengkung ngan korang . haha .
kontest ni terbuka kepada semua warganegara malaysia tak kira umur dan jantina.
tag 3orang blogger ok :)
3 orang pemenang je akan dipilih . kalau nak tambah nanti kitorang gitau . haha
update : sebab takut ramai sangat, limit untuk join 1000 orang sahaja . kalau nak tambah hana bagitau :)

Siapa aku nak tag ni? Hurmmm...

Regent! :)
Athirah! :D :D
Atul? haha

2010-12-17T19:30:00.005+08:00

LEPAK LAGI :D

Haha keluar almost everyday. Sepatutnya EVERYday tapi since aunty dah bising sikit, so some plans are postponed and some are cancelled. Tapi hari ni punya outing dah plan since last week, so mesti lah jadi kan? :D

Reezal was nearly an hour late! Haha tapi takpe, dimaafkan. We lepak at the foodcourt in KLCC until Zuhur, then they went to the mosque for Solat Jumaat then lunch kat Manhattan Fish Market kat Ampang Park and finally lepak Andalus sampai petang :D terserempak dengan IK pulak. Haha.

Some pictures to share ;D

Awesome ;)

2010-12-16T12:25:00.003+08:00

ANOTHER OUTING :D

Went out with Aqilah, I planned to sleep over at her house but nah, tak jadi.

The day started out quite badly, due to what happened the previous night.

But it ended up perfectly, everyone was on my side :3 HAHA bangga en?

The outing with Aqilah was so much fun!

Stalk hotties at KLCC. HAHAHAHA :P

Tomorrow will be lepaking with Zain and Reezal!

YAY! :D