Lost and lonely.

When the person you always turn to when you're sad becomes the reason for your tears, you can't help but to feel hopeless, and depressed, and sad, and empty, and lonely, unloved.

Why must the people I love leave? Why do they have to hurt me?

I love my mom with all my heart, I'd die for her. I'd do anything, everything for her, but she left before I had any chances of doing so.

I loved my dad, I thought that when she left, he'll be there for me. I was wrong, I've never been more wrong. He left too. Months after she did.

I love my siblings. 2 of my sisters are leaving soon. They're getting married, they're gonna have their own family soon enough, and again, I'm left.

The guy that I love, very much I could say, did exactly the thing that I told him would hurt me. Have I seen this coming? I'm not sure. But my heart has never felt so bad. I feel crushed, I feel betrayed. If it's possible to die because of heart break, I'd have died right away. You said you love me, you could at least hide the thing that you did so that I wouldn't have seen it, so that I wouldn't be this hurt. You keep me wondering, do you really mean whatever you said?

The people that I call my best friends back is high school, most of them are slowly drifting away. I can feel the bond between us weakens, and no, don't you even think of blaming the distance for that. Neither am I blaming anybody, we're just moving on different paths.

Well, maybe that's just life. People come, people go. Some people stay through out the story, some might just be a chapter of your life. Though there's a twist in my story where people just go and go and go, none will stay.

I can't blame anyone. Why would people stay in my life anyways, right? It's too complicated, what's with the never-ending dramas and continuous heartbreaks. Even if I were to choose, I'd rather be out of it.