I miss my Uda :(

I haven't seen her for nearly a month. Afaf called me just now and we talked about Uda.I pity her, being all alone and lonely the house. I miss her :(

My sister who just got married last year, though still lives in that same house, but is busy with her husband. Too busy to bother with other things that happen in the house.

My other who's getting married in June is too busy with her fiancé that when we asked her to bring Uda out jalan2, she's 'tired with work'.

I know I always fight with her, melawan and pemalas gila. But deep inside my heart I love her so so much. Seeing her like this breaks my heart to million pieces. If I could, seriously I wouldn't mind going back and forth KL to Sepang everyday. Setakat toll and fuel tu apalah sangat. Time pun 1.5 hour je pergi balik. Energy? Tak terbalas pun energy yang Uda guna to raise me up.

Ya Allah. Pedihnya rasa hati. How I wish I could be there for her all the time. How I wish I could be that little girl again who can sit around at home, annoying her all day long. At least she won't feel lonely. Too bad, banyak urusan yang harus aku selesaikan demi masa depan.

I'll work the hardest. I'll make her proud of me, I'll make sure he won't regret a second of raising me up. Inshallah. Dear God, the only thing I ask from You is to hold her when I'm not around. When I'm much too far away. Please ya Allah. Make her happy.