Aku hamba yang lemah.

I can't help feeling angry, I can't help but feel annoyed, offended. I can't help but feel restless and unhappy, I can't stop myself from having all these negative feelings.

I can neither keep everything inside, but I don't wanna tell people about it. This blog is where I let things out.

I hate it when I have this 'bad aura' towards someone. Especially if that person is someone near me. That's one problem. Another problem is people who just doesn't know how to mind their words, who just doesn't know how to control the words that come out from their mouth.

There's a way to correct someone, there's a way to be emotional, there's a way for everything in Islam. Don't do as you please and offend everyone around you. Before you open you mouth, think. Before you utter the words, think. Before you act, freaking THINK. You're a human being with brain. So THINK.

One thing I'm very thankful for is my ability to hide my emotions. Don't get me wrong. I'm not the kind of girls who "force myself to smile in front of people but cries myself to sleep" no. It's just that, when I'm emo (contohnya when I'm at that time of the month) I won't be all emotional ignore the world with an upside-down curve plastered on my face.

I can still smile, sincerely. As for now, I have a huge internal conflict which greatly disturbs my mind, but alhamdulillah. Allah still gives me the strength to smile, to appreciate anything else around me. Aku hamba yang lemah, segala sesuatu yang mampu aku lakukan hanyalah dengan izin dariNya.