Love? Maybe not.

Love. It's the reason for so many things that happen in this world. For some people, it's the reason behind their smile. For some people, it's the reason they smile to hide all the tears and pain. For some people, love is their everything. For some people, like me, love is just a fairytale.

First thing first, when I say "Live happily ever after", I bet the thing that cross your mind is a happy girl who has been found by her prince charming, he proposed, they get married, have kids and well, live happily ever after. No? True love is what every human being dream of, to love someone and be loved in return. That's where they find eternal happiness. Well, maybe it's true for some people. As for those who has had their heart broken, I doubt it works the same way. Once you're hurt, terribly, the word love just doesn't make sense anymore. "Love" no longer involves the significant other, love now involves your hobby, your family, your best friends. Happily ever after? It means chasing your dream and doing the thing that you love, as for me? I travel, and maybe, study. Hehe.

Oh and actually, the main reason for saying love is the reason for so many things in this world is because of the songs I listen to. When going through my playlist, I realise that about 85% of them are love songs? Bila happy, here comes the songs like Kiss Me by SNTR or maybe Happy Together by The Turtles? Haha. That's such a cute song, Nadia always hated me for singing that song. And okay, bila sedih, here comes Adele's. Then bila dah move on sikit, maybe Gone by Kelly Clarkson or or or urmm yeah, I Will Survive by Cake. All these different moods of songs make me think, if it wasn't for 'love', people won't have all these intense feeling of happiness, sadness, frustration and whatever all the songs are about. People don't write songs about their disappointment of failing an exam kan? Haha. So somehow ada guna jugak lah kot all these jerks and heart breakers, without them the music industry would be so dull and boring. HAHA boleh tak macam tu?

I don't know what makes me blog about this, maybe it's all the mushy cheesy yucky love quotes on twitter. How most of the time I am feelingless about them, but some time they just get on my nerve I feel like blocking all these people who keep retweeting them. It's amazing how I really don't trust guys now. My friends say I'm pushing people away but I don't know if that's what I'm doing. If they call it pushing people away, I call it I don't wanna give people hope, and I myself don't wanna get involved in such mess of having deep feelings for people anymore.

Love? Looking forward to start my 3-month language course, then to start my degree somewhere in July inshaallah. Studying, that's my passion, that's love for me :)