I feel suffocated, I'm gasping for air. My heart feels empty yet very heavy, it feels like something is clenching on to it. It's like something isn't right, something is missing.
Maybe cause I miss Afaf who will be home in a few days time. Maybe cause I miss my little Eve who is now not with us, I don't know when will I get to see her again. Maybe I miss my BFF Atul who's a thousand miles away, whom I haven't talked to for quite sometimes. Maybe just maybe.
Maybe cause I'm worried about so many things. I'm worried about my aunt who's growing old, I'm worried about my future; will I graduate in 5 years will I be a good dentist will I enjoy my life will I live a happy carefree life will my life end in a good way will I be seeing Him as a good Muslim?
It's day 2 at home (the weekend at Penang isn't counted) yet I'm already worried about going back to the place I despise very much. I know I know, I should enjoy the moment, spend time with the people around me, the people I love. But I can't help it. I can't help thinking that this won't last and in a blink of an eye, the day will come and I have to leave again.
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