Homesick.

So this is what Jannah was talking about. "Aku taknak balik sebab aku taknak rasa lagi sekali apa aku rasa time fly dulu."

Thing is, the feels worse than that. 

Dulu time KTT, ada one time I feel homesick though I'm home cause it feels like something is missing, the house feels empty.

This time it's totally different. I feel homesick though I'm at home, for thinking that I've to go back there. Can I not? Can I stay in Malaysia and do some other stuffs? Can I not proceed in this field?

I feel the need to talk to someone but I don't know who. It's complicated no one would understand me. I am complicated. I complicate simple things. Ya Allah. Serious, ikutkan hati I wanna quit whatever I'm doing. I'm not happy. Ya Allah. Kenapa rasa macam ni?