Semangat yang hilang.

Everyday when I wake up, I've to keep telling myself "Madihah, please be more enthusiastic today." And everytime I'll whisper back "Yes I will."

I keep telling myself, at every point of the day "Things will get better you just have to be more positive."

Until there's a time, where I get exhausted. No more good vibes to be pumped into this body with an empty soul. No more energy to be used to be enthusiastic, all are drained out.

I used to be able to say "the only thing that keeps me going is..." Now I could hardly think of any.

I've lost it all and I don't know where to find it again. Why can't these kind of things be found by using a map?