Thoughts.

It's a holiday, which means I've a lot of time for myself, I can't go to lab to do my work, I've some books to read but it simply means it involves me being alone in my very own room with ample time to overthink, to mourn over things.

"No regrets." I keep repeating those sacred words in my head, to keep me going, to bury my roots deep into the ground, to be able to stand up and face life.

But of course, at times you can't help thinking of the past. Last night a random thought crossed my mind. All the guys I turned down, all of them are now taken. And I was like, well that girl could be me. Then I think again, well maybe not no I don't wanna be that girl. 

I miss my little girls. All four of them. I miss Hawa, I miss Eve, I miss Min, and I miss baby Asha who I haven't even met. Is it possible to love someone you've never met? 

Well obviously yes.