A little bit more than usual.

1) I just scrolled through the hashtag #livelifeloud and oh god the entries for this final round are crayyyyyzeyyyy! Like god I can't be more thankful Kak Quna told me about the competition much earlier. Even the entries for second round were amazing I wasn't very confident we would win BUT HELL YEAH WE DID HAHA CANT WAITTTT ILL BE SCREAMING YOUR NAME HARRY WAIT FOR MEEEEE ❤️❤️❤️

2) 50 Shades movie was disappointing, very disappointing. Just like If I Stay. I mean, wey come on those are love stories. Find a compatible couple with strong chemistry. You can't just put a guy and a girl together for a love story?! 50 Shades tu fine la there are so many factors to be considered. BUT NO. It's not fine. I'm not just unhappy with the total absence of chemistry between Ana and Grey. There's no chemistry even between Ana and Kath, Kath and Elliot, Ana and her mom, Grey and her mom, Mia? Goddd that movie sucks like totally. Thinking about it again, If I Stay was better, maybe, but not by much.

3) I don't know how I survived KTT early days binging ONLY on bread and tuna/Nutella. I realized I've been very weak the past few days cause I can't even remember the last time I has a proper meal. I've been eating bread with egg mayo for all meals (breakfast, dinner, lunch) and grapes for snacks. I'm feeling better again now after having rice with fried chicken (I desperately need proper food that's the best I could prepare in this midst of pure laziness).

4) I missed Friday. I only realized it's Friday after Maghreb just now. I didn't even cut my nails. Sigh, what a waste.

5) I've been thinking a lot about death lately. Actually, no. I don't really think about death, just that it cross my mind all the time. Every time I'm doing something I'll be like "Do I wanna die like this?". Like there was this one time I was just lying on my prayer mat in my telekung and I couldn't help but think "This would be a very beautiful way to die." And another time when we were crossing the road and laughing, again I couldn't stop thinking "I don't wanna die this way."

6) My room is a total mess. I realize that it literally shows my state of mind. When you walk into my room, you can tell what mood I'm in looking at the condition of my room. Now isn't really the good timing for you to walk into my room. There wouldn't even be a place for you to sit, or even step on.... (That's exaggerating, or maybe not?)

7) I survived today not reading a novel, yesterday too. Maybe cause I've finished Colleen Hoover's. Actually there are two more; Never Never and Maybe Not but I can't find them. I guess it's a sign for me to take a break. 

8) Home in eight days :)