Lawak tengah malam.

I just talked to Amirul and I don't think we talked much we basically just laughed throughout the conversation haha

Lawak lahh he's such a nice guy. Dah la dulu pernah cuci mata tengok dia masa dia masuk KTT, pastu kawan lain pulak yang rapat dengan dia. Hahahahaha I don't think he knows this blog but in case you did Amirul please ignore that hahaha

Nak tulis benda lain but while I was writing that, it cross my mind yang seronok je kenal someone yang kita suka as kawan. Not that I like Amirul that way, I like him that he's such a nice friend of course tapi kalau dulu tegur sebab suka tengok dia it would've been very different. And the fact that he tegur me because I'm his smart A-Level senior is very flattering hahahaha

Haha okay back to what I intended to write about. I've never been lucky in relationship-slash-romance-related stuffs. Sometimes when something ends, I would feel like maybe if I had done this it wouldn't have been like this, or maybe if I hadn't don't that this wouldn't have happened. Tapi sebenarnya tak. It just means that it's not meant to happen. Even if you get to turn back time and change the things you did, trust me the outcome would've been completely the same. I don't put very much hope on my current situation. I don't even think it would work. Like I mentioned in the previous post, it is just so silly. And in my situation right now, if I hadn't done what I did, somewhere in the future I would be thinking hmm kalau buat pape something might have happened. Tapi tak pun. Sama je buat ke tak buat. Haha. But well my actions saved me from one of the many what-ifs of my life.

And also, thank god I had this funny conversation. Earlier I talked to the most annoying guy friend I ever had.

Why lah I'm surrounded with delusional jerkass guys. Bongkak sangat kaya tu.

Here's a note, I'm not turned on by wealth. I can make my own money, and I will be making lots of them, inshallah. I'm turned on by hardwork and enthusiasm. I'm not turned on by those big muscles. I'm turned on by big brains. What about you jerks pick up a book and read to fill your empty delusional brain rather than lift those weights and make you look like a freaking turtle with little head and huge body? It's a great insult that they think I'm that kind of girl. Urgh. I know what I want and I won't settle for less, especially not for jerks like you guys pfft