I miss you.

Have you ever missed someone until your heart feels so heavy? It feels like someone/something is clinging on to it, wanting to snatch it away through your ribs?

I'm suddenly filled with all those shitty emotions. Probably one of the major reason being my dream last night. We fought. Actually I fought with my dad, which made me want to leave home, which she wouldn't let.

I love dreaming about her, but not that kind of dreams. I've never had a bad dream about her. I've dreamed of her being sad but she said it was okay cause she knows I always remember her. This is the first dream in 9 years that she's mad at me.

It's sad. I miss you Ummi :(

And everyone else back home.