Sometimes I feel like maybe I'm just overreacting, maybe I don't even have any mental issues it's just inside my head; like how many people would put it. Or maybe that's what I hope is true.
Remember how I was saying the episodes of my anxiety attack was becoming more frequent? And how I was scared shitless that what if one day I really suffer from anxiety disorder? I guess my biggest nightmare has now come to life.
My anxiety is getting out of control. Every single thing makes me anxious, it's consuming me, eating me from inside. I lost my appetite, I lost my interest in doing things that I like, I lost the will to clean my room and do my chores. I lost 5kg in 2 weeks, I'm fatigued, I just wanna sleep everything off and never wake up again.
I know I need help, a professional help but where do I go to here? Who would understand? No one, not anyone who never had to experience all these. People think I'm just overthinking overreacting overanalysing everything, people say you should chill and stop worrying about unnecessary things. Well I've tried, I've been trying and it's not working. I've been trying so fucking hard but I can't control my brain, she's a free soul who wander to the darkest of places, a free soul as curious as her master, and well, curiosity kills the cat.
Sigh.
Remember how I was saying the episodes of my anxiety attack was becoming more frequent? And how I was scared shitless that what if one day I really suffer from anxiety disorder? I guess my biggest nightmare has now come to life.
My anxiety is getting out of control. Every single thing makes me anxious, it's consuming me, eating me from inside. I lost my appetite, I lost my interest in doing things that I like, I lost the will to clean my room and do my chores. I lost 5kg in 2 weeks, I'm fatigued, I just wanna sleep everything off and never wake up again.
I know I need help, a professional help but where do I go to here? Who would understand? No one, not anyone who never had to experience all these. People think I'm just overthinking overreacting overanalysing everything, people say you should chill and stop worrying about unnecessary things. Well I've tried, I've been trying and it's not working. I've been trying so fucking hard but I can't control my brain, she's a free soul who wander to the darkest of places, a free soul as curious as her master, and well, curiosity kills the cat.
Sigh.
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