All hail to the queen of delulu haha. I really thought we had something special going on. Long story short (to summarise what happened since the last post), I confessed and it was a soft rejection of “let’s remain friends” but me being Madihah, I don’t give up just like that. I respect his decision of wanting to be friends, of course, and if anything, we grew closer. We attended a concert together (one of the best memories I have with him after ABC trip), we went to Genting and just wander around aimlessly together, we walked around Petaling Street and just enjoyed being in each other’s company.
It all ended abruptly when his demeanour changed, it literally felt like “a total eclipse of the heart” kinda thing. I asked him about it but he said “it’s not you it’s me” told me not to worry about it he just needed some space and time alone.
Sounds all too familiar, isn’t it? I tried talking to him, I tried to be there for him, maybe my gesture as a good friend is a little too much for him. All my efforts only brought him further and further from me.
Blessing in disguise? I’m getting close to a new group of friends in Camp5. I did bump into him once or twice and it was pretty tense and awkward. Still, I tried texting him a couple of times.
I wish I could live up to “orang dah taknak kau blah je doh”. Took me awhile to finally be able to do that. It’s kinda sad, I really thought we found our way back for a reason but I guess it served as a lesson lol.
But I still love you a big deal, in whatever way it is. I’m annoyed but I’m sure you have your reasons. I wish you nothing but the best, I wish you a life showered with God’s mercy and blessing. Goodbye.
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