Live Blogging (not really) #2

I'm on the train to Ipoh with my aunt. At first I was secretly complaining, "Why don't they just let me drive there? Having to be in the train for more than 2 hours? Urgh." but I know they're still not really confident with my driving skills to drive that far, alone with only my aunt. She just asked me "Kalau drive pergi sana adik berani?" ....... Is she a mind reader? I said "Of course la berani -.-'" she was like "Laa kenapa tak cakap awal2 baik naik kereta je." -_____-'

So a lesson well learnt, just voice it out, whatever that you wanted. So instead of driving happily, speeding up letting things off of my mind, here I am stuck in the train just sitting around playing with my phone. My aunt is siting silently beside me. I know thousands of things are running through her mind, you can see it in her eyes. How I wish I could lessen her burden, sometimes I think "I'd do anything to just take all the worries out of her, even if it means putting them all on me." but then I think again, would I? Could I?

I couldn't even handle my own burden, it breaks me inside out. Double of it? I can't even make myself think about it. But also, the thing that keeps me going is that I really really believe that things happen for a reason, there's a relief after every difficulties (94:5) and also I believe, He wouldn't impose someone beyond their capacity (23:62). I believe in His words, I believe there's a priceless reward after all this hardship.

It's amazing how when you think of Him even just for a second, you can literally feel all the depression sorrow tense all the burdens are lightened. Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest (13:28).

Alhamdulillah. All praises to Allah. I'm thankful to be born a Muslim, I'm even more thankful that I grow up really wanting to be a Muslim. I'm a Muslim by choice, not by chance. Lillahita'ala. Inshaallah. May my journey be blessed by Him, may every single seconds of my life be blessed by Him. Amin :)