Tiada hala tuju.

Wow, it has been a while since the last time I blog using the laptop. It's so spacious. Hahaha okay jakun kan dah berabad tak sentuh laptop ni lah jadi.

Hmm what makes me wanna write this time hmmm okay. Lately I always feel lost, I feel empty, I feel like I don't belong anywhere, I feel like nobody cares, I feel like I have no one. It hits me hard that, the main reason for me to feel all these is because I'm far from Him. But still, I'm thankful that He still gives me the chance to feel this even after I failed so many times. I vow to try my best to be better after each day, but then as time goes by, I start to forget, I start to slack off and went astray; back to the jahiliah.

I'm not strong enough, I'm a weak human being. But I won't let that kill my spirits, with Him by my side, I can do this! I'll keep trying and I won't give up. I know all these voices in my head saying; "Serious kau nak buat ni seumur hidup kau? Mampu ke nak istiqamah macam ni sampai mati? Baik tunggu tua sikit enjoy ah dulu, nnt dah kahwin ke apa ke baru la jadi baik" are whispers of the satans. WHAT ABOUT NO. NO. NO. NO. I won't fall for that. Tunggu tua? Sampai ke nak jadi tua tu? I wouldn't know when will be the time for Him to call me back to where I came from. What if it's tomorrow? What if it's tonight? What if it's in the next few hours and I didn't get the chance to repent because I plan to do it "bila dah tua sikit"? Nauzubillah.

Dan janganlah kamu mengikut jejak langkah syaitan; sesungguhnya syaitan itu musuh bagu kamu yang terang nyata. [2:208]

Aku ada hala tuju. Hala tujuku ialah Syurga. Aku tahu jalannya berliku, penuh ujian dan dugaan. Tapi apakah sedikit kesakitan di dunia untuk mencapai kebahagiaan yang kekal selamanya? Aku tahu jalan ini tidak mudah. Tapi aku percaya dengan janjiNya, pertolongan dan rahmatNya. Aku akan cuba sedaya upaya. Inshaallah.