My comfort zone.

Some people think it's unhealthy. Okay fine not some, most is the more appropriate term to be used. Almost all of my friends think it's unhealthy. 

It has been a while since I last wrote about him. Honestly, I don't have feelings for him anymore, not at all. We never were together as in in a relationship but what we had was pretty special. Though it was more bitter than sweet, but the times we had were eventful. 

There was also a time where I couldn't even stand hearing his name (zaman belum move on, zaman tengah madly crazily infatuated) but now, he's who I'll find when I'm all messed up.

He'll always reply, he'll always pick up my call, he'll never immediately say he's too busy. He'll still talk to me though for a few minutes. And we'll always laugh and for that few minutes I could forget about whatever shit that's happening in my life.

But doesn't mean I want to be involved with him the way we used to. I just want him around when I'm messed up. You might think I'm mean, but I'm 100% he doesn't care, he knows. He's my comfort zone, nothing more and probably something less.