Nighttime.

It's just another night where I'm up alone studying. I love this time of the day, very quiet and cold and peaceful, no one to talk to me and no one I've to talk to. It gets lonely but being lonely is better than being annoyed.

It's just another night where I worry about my own future. What if I end up doing things I don't enjoy at all for the rest of my life cause of the risks I don't dare to take? But also, dunya isn't the place to look for happiness. Look what the dunya has done to you, it empties your heart, my heart.

It's just neither night where I'm thinking of all the possibilities in life, of all the other things that I could be doing if I wasn't here. The people I would've met if I had been elsewhere. The person I would've been if I were at a different place.

It's just another night where I miss everyone. It's just another night where my tears pool up but never fall. It's just another night where I wish things would be different. It's just another night where I wish for my life to be a fairytale. To be doing the things I love, to be with the people I love. 

Yeah, it's just another night.

And tomorrow, will also be just another night.

Sigh.