Lost.

I just stalked an Instagram of a guy who lost his girlfriend because of a car crash. And me being Madihah, my heart breaks, I could somehow feel his pain, the kind of pain I always get when I read a sad story, but this one the pain is more real because the story is not fictional. 

I couldn't say, "I wonder how much does it hurt losing someone you love so much" cause I know how it feels like.

I lost my mom. My backbone, my source of eternal love, but I'm thankful that Allah didn't just take her and leave me alone, He lets us have Uda. I love Uda as much as I love my mom, because though she's not my biological mom, she is my mom in so many possible ways.

But still, I couldn't imagine losing your significant other. At the age where you thought you've found your true love, the true love everyone is looking for, some people might never even find it. You found it, but then you lost it. I just can't imagine. Especially when you're very madly crazily in love with each other.

Looking from a different perspective, it makes you realize how nothing in this world is permanent, everything is temporary. Everything is loaned to you, and He is the Only One with the power to either let you have it or to take it away.

I'm i the group of people still searching for my true love, unsure if it'll be found. Whatever happens, I hope Allah will bless me with unconditional happiness in this world and the hereafter, in the best of ways. Aminnn