Paradoxical.

I'm tired, very tired. I haven't been awake at this hour for quite sometime now. I've been busy, by 12 I'm usually too tired to do anything and I'll just fall asleep effortlessly. 

It's 1:20AM now. Past my normal bed time. It's times like this where all hells break loose. All the energy I've put on maintaining my positive cycle dispersed into the thin air. Leaving me with self doubts, opening up the drawers where I locked away all my insecurities. 

I miss you. I don't know who is this you that I miss, but I miss you. Come fast, come save me from this mess, come tell me 'I've found you at last'.