Suffocating.

The thing that I've always been scared of, is happening. When I feel the same feeling when I'm home as when I'm away from home. Probably things at home changed so much as compared to when before I left. I'm suffocated. I don't have time of my own. I've little kids clinging on me all the time like I'm a mother of four. Don't get me wrong, I do love my nieces, very much indeed. But I'm not ready for this kind of commitment. I can hardly do anything, I could hardly get up for god's sake without someone calling out "Madek!"

I also love having my sisters around. But it's just....idk. I've a long list of things to do yet I haven't started on any. I'm totally drained out. I'm not ready for this kind of responsibilities and commitment, I'm a single carefree young lady and I'm not supposed to be experiencing this. But who do I blabber this to?