First of all, I just wanna say my thanks to Allah. Alhamdulillah I am now somewhat at peace with myself. I guess it's just another day where I realise how blessed I am, but then again me being a totally typical normal human being, I always have things to complain about.
With my current life of funemployment, I got all the time in the world to do things I like, I never really fun out of money (a rezeki I will always always always be thankful for), I don't have exams or assignments to be all stressed out about. Eventually, the only problem I can never seem to stay away from is my feelings, and oh good Lord, I am aware of hoe petty they are. Or sometimes, my problem is my body weight, or some drama related to my climbing activity.
And yes, your problem is bigger than mine, I admit that. I am always here to listen without judgment. I try my very best to make you feel better cause I've been there. But I am sick of you saying the same thing, I can share my petty problems with you as long as I'll be there for you when you need me. That's bullshit when whenever I have issues, you'll come back to me with "ARE YOU CRAZY?" or "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU THINKING MADIHAH?" or "Eee over nya benda ni je pun"
I can still accept it if it is about guys, because when it comes to someone I have strong feelings for, I have the reputation of doing things impulsively, hence stupidly. But I think it's a tad too much when you belittle something I'm passionate for, my climbing. It's just too much.
Maybe I am selfish, you are going through what probably is the hardest phase in your life and here I am terasa hati with something so petty.
But you know, listeners need a listener too. But oh well.
With my current life of funemployment, I got all the time in the world to do things I like, I never really fun out of money (a rezeki I will always always always be thankful for), I don't have exams or assignments to be all stressed out about. Eventually, the only problem I can never seem to stay away from is my feelings, and oh good Lord, I am aware of hoe petty they are. Or sometimes, my problem is my body weight, or some drama related to my climbing activity.
And yes, your problem is bigger than mine, I admit that. I am always here to listen without judgment. I try my very best to make you feel better cause I've been there. But I am sick of you saying the same thing, I can share my petty problems with you as long as I'll be there for you when you need me. That's bullshit when whenever I have issues, you'll come back to me with "ARE YOU CRAZY?" or "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU THINKING MADIHAH?" or "Eee over nya benda ni je pun"
I can still accept it if it is about guys, because when it comes to someone I have strong feelings for, I have the reputation of doing things impulsively, hence stupidly. But I think it's a tad too much when you belittle something I'm passionate for, my climbing. It's just too much.
Maybe I am selfish, you are going through what probably is the hardest phase in your life and here I am terasa hati with something so petty.
But you know, listeners need a listener too. But oh well.
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