I'm not going to say those cliche words of "Cepatnya rasa dah habis!" cause that really wasn't the case. Those were the longest three weeks of my life, couldn't stop asking myself when was it going to be over. I'm just really glad it's over now, the theory papers at least. I still have 8 more practicals to go, back-to-back starting on the 10th.
Theory papers were.........okay. Some subjects I was quite confident, but some others, I really don't know. I really hope I'd pass though, I really hope all of us would pass together, and graduate together.
I'm pretty much out of words now, cause I'm feeling alright. No exam stress, moved on from that silly stupid heartbreak (if you can even call that that lol, cause seriously I think I exaggerated my respond. I figured out that maybe I'm just addicted to feeling sad. I like being sad. It makes me creative, it helps me create beautiful lines. Well, anyway) yeah. Nothing much to worry about except my upcoming practical exams.
However, I don't know, maybe merajuk haritu macam tak habis lagi kot. I'm having the tawar hati phase with my family now. I mean, ntah lah. I know I shouldn't be. I understand that people are busy on the first few days of raya, I understand that they've their own life now, their own family their own kids. And of course, I get busy too and when I do, I don't have the time to talk to them too. I guess it's just that they're occupied with so many other things in their life while as for me, they're all I have.
I'll probably utilize my holiday looking for ways to love myself, to be happy for all I have, to not let anyone - not my family, my nieces, anyone at all affect my life.
I want to be happy. I want to find the happiness within me. Happiness from an intrinsic source rather than outside, I'll look out for you, I will.
Theory papers were.........okay. Some subjects I was quite confident, but some others, I really don't know. I really hope I'd pass though, I really hope all of us would pass together, and graduate together.
I'm pretty much out of words now, cause I'm feeling alright. No exam stress, moved on from that silly stupid heartbreak (if you can even call that that lol, cause seriously I think I exaggerated my respond. I figured out that maybe I'm just addicted to feeling sad. I like being sad. It makes me creative, it helps me create beautiful lines. Well, anyway) yeah. Nothing much to worry about except my upcoming practical exams.
However, I don't know, maybe merajuk haritu macam tak habis lagi kot. I'm having the tawar hati phase with my family now. I mean, ntah lah. I know I shouldn't be. I understand that people are busy on the first few days of raya, I understand that they've their own life now, their own family their own kids. And of course, I get busy too and when I do, I don't have the time to talk to them too. I guess it's just that they're occupied with so many other things in their life while as for me, they're all I have.
I'll probably utilize my holiday looking for ways to love myself, to be happy for all I have, to not let anyone - not my family, my nieces, anyone at all affect my life.
I want to be happy. I want to find the happiness within me. Happiness from an intrinsic source rather than outside, I'll look out for you, I will.
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